Testimony from Lakewood church

Testimony of a lady from Lakewood Church

I certainly learned how to fight and keep focused by Dodie Osteen's teachings. I am grateful for her and also for Gloria Copeland's teachings. I had never listened to Gloria's teaching until a stranger contacted me and gave me her teaching CD's. He heard about me and wanted to pray for me. I am so grateful I "met" these teachings through him. Prosperity teachings? I hear criticisms but I am definitely grateful for their belief in healing. They caused me to look into the Scriptures more intently.

I am also grateful for the people at my church, The River, who keep standing with me.

I am also grateful for the teachings of The Bethel in Redding, California.

I am also grateful for the prayers of many different denominations. We are one in Christ Jesus.

Cancer is not mine. It does not belong to me.

December 23, 2011 - new lesions

The result of the scan showed some new lesions, but everything else was stable.
The doctor seems to think it is possible that the lesions may not be cancer. My husband and I are glad to hear that! We'll have to have more test and see.

God is happy when we have faith when there seems to be no hope.

Jesus came to the world to give us hope and life.
Faith in Jesus is not just a "beautiful thing" to have. It is life or death.

Jesus, I still trust in you.

PET scan

Today I had an appointment for a PET scan.
I was praying and thinking about something to say to the scan tech person. Something that honors God and something that encourages me and hopefully him. I wanted to see God's glory.  This was my 5th time to see him. I ended up saying, "My body will not suck up any of the radioactive nuclear medicine you are about to inject in my blood." He smiled and said, "That's good!" It turned out to be more for me than anything else.  I think I was hoping that would be a prophetic word over myself. I prayed hard while I was waiting for the medicine to go through my body - for 90 minutes. I prayed, then fell asleep, then I prayed. I felt like I was ready when the tech came to get me.

On my way out, I saw somebody I knew. Her doctor found a spot in her lung. Without hesitation I reached out to her and whispered a prayer for her. I forgot how shy I was. When love is first, fear (due to shyness) disappears! I believe she will be okay.

The person I got to know through my brother-in-law texted me the other day. We haven't met each other yet, but we talk on the phone and pray for each other. She was also diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. When I talked to her about a month ago, she was coughing so much that she could not continue talking. Well, in her text the other day she said that her PET scan showed that the tumor had not only stopped growing but it has shrunk to almost nothing! I called her and she was not coughing at all this time. 

God does not change. I want to brag about Him.

25th anniversary

We have disagreements in many areas, but praise God we celebrated our early 25th anniversary last weekend. The grass becomes green where we water. God loves us in every area of our lives. He makes a new way even when we felt like there wasn't going to be any. The enemy must flee when we resist. God is so faithful. We wait, and he comes.

During our celebration, we rode bicycles, hiked, and walked in one day. I felt great! Being able to do all those itself is a miracle for me.

Last week I went to my oncologist's office. He had skipped my maintenance med. twice due to my dental procedures (root canals) so I was naturally a bit nervous. I meditated on the scriptures of God's healing promises more than usual the night before. And God faithfully revealed his power in the result of my blood test and the blood pressure. They were perfectly normal!

I am thankful.

Cleaving to God - I Samuel 30:6

David found strength from God.

I Samuel 30:6b

(KJV) ...but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God.
(NAS) ...but David strengthened himself in the LORD his God.
(NLT)...but David found strehgth in the LORD his God.

וַיִּתְחַזֵּ֣ק  (Strong's #2388) is the word for "encouraged" or "found strength."

It has meanings like fasten upon, seize, be strong, to bind, cleave, hold faｓt, lean, etc...

How did David become encouraged and strong? We don't have to imagine or guess what he did or how he did it because it is indicated in the original word! He cleaved to the LORD his God. That is how we stay encouraged and gain strength, too, because the word of God gives strength and life to those who find them. (proverbs)

I was greatly encouraged by the following words from Deuteronomy 4:4.  The word for "cleave" is a different word from #2388 (it is #1695),  but "cleave" part is the same. : )

(KJV) ...but ye that did cleave upon the LORD your God are alive every one of you today.

I once asked the LORD, "What was I doing then, when I was reading the Bible and studying the Bible, before I was diagnosed with cancer? Wasn't I reading your word?" I felt a soft small voice in my heart immediately after I said it. "These words are giving you life." This was a moment when I understood what he meant. He doesn't answer my "why" questions, but he gives me peace. Our God's kindness is great. I keep trusting Him. He is my hope.　Cleaving to/clinging to/adhering to God is the best place to be.

Thanksgiving - Psalm 30

Psalm 30

¹ I will exalt you, Lord, for you rescued me.
      You refused to let my enemies triumph over me.
 ² O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
      and you restored my health.
 ³ You brought me up from the grave, O Lord.
      You kept me from falling into the pit of death.

That is exactly what God is doing in my life!
I am full of gratitude.
Thank you, Father.

Today I got together with some of my relatives, and I connected with some of my friends via texting. My heart was full of joy.

 ¹¹ You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing.
      You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy,
 ¹² that I might sing praises to you and not be silent.
      O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!

I don't want to forget what you have done.
I keep praising you, Lord.

Spoken words - Deuteromony 4:9

Deuteronomy 4:9 (my own words, acquired from different translations)

Only take heed, hedge about, attend to , and protect your life/breath/soul diligently so that you don't forget what God has said (= and done!) which your eyes have seen, and so that the word of God, which was accomplished by His deeds, will not leave your heart all the way till the end.

Instruct your children and grandchildren.

In Dodie Osteen's book, I read that the word for "God has said (=and done)" is translated as "miracle" in her devotional. In other translations it is "word" or "things." It caught my eyes.

I found that the original word is Strong's Hebrew 1697    דָּבָר (dabar).

It can be word, spoken, matter, or thing. 

Dabar is also the Hebrew title of Deuteronomy. 

Personally this word is saying that the word of God equals things/matter because God does what he says. That the spoken words are always done is hidden in this small word. When God's spoken words or promises come true in front of our eyes, it is a miracle.

Joshua 21:45 (my own words acquired from different translations)

Not one good thing/promise/word (Strong's 1697) which the LORD had spoken unto the house of Israel failed; all came to pass/go/bring forth/cause.

It is written that God's word will not return to him void. In this case the word even causes things. I sense the importance of the spoken words.

Jesus told the disciples that "These signs will accompany those who believe; They will cast out demons in my name, and they will speak new language; they will be able to handle snakes with safety, and if they drink anything poisonous, it won't hurt them. They will be able to place their hands on the sick and heal them."

Then later the Bible says that ".. the disciples went everywhere and preached, and the LORD worked with them, confirming what they said by many miraculous signs."

I don't know how to compare Greek words to Hebrew, but somehow I think these scriptures go together.

I thank God for His life-giving words. Lord, I pray that your word keeps being alive in my life and those who need life in their bodies. 

In Jesus,

"You saved my soul"

Be blessed by Bryan and Katie Torwalt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zouu_88-ZV8



"....I'm healed now, cause you made me whole."

This makes me smile.

change in treatment plan

My oncologist has always said that the treatment plan will remain the same, but he is changing it.

Me "Could you remind me the reason why I was inoperable? People are asking me and I can't remember the reason."
Doctor "Well, the cancer was all over you."
Me "But it is in one place in the upper lung."
Doctor "Mmmm. If it stays the same for one year, we can have a surgeon to take it out."
Me "It is staying the same since April."
Then the doctor wrote down that he may send me to a surgeon in April. (or something similar)

Just like that?
Compared to what it was a year ago, it is amazing!

God is still watching how his words are accomplishing their purposes. His words never fails.
I am just standing in awe.

I am sorry but I have to confess here that I still don't have courage to be a part of a support group. Maybe I should be there and encourage people, but I don't feel strong enough to do it. I encourage myself through God's words but I may be discouraged easily. I want to keep looking up. When the medical world says there is not hope, God is my only hope. No man can save me. I just stand in awe and praise him. :)

Can we pray for other sick people while you are not yet healed?

Yes.

Dodie Osteen went out to pray for the sick while she was still suffering from cancer. Some people encouraged me to pray for other people, but I haven't done it consistently.


In Genesis Abraham and Sarah were told by God's messengers that Sarah was going to have a baby a year later. They were too old to have a baby in human's eyes. After this Abraham still lied to Abimelek and told him Sarah was his sister. Abimelek took Sarah in, but was warned in his dream not to touch her. Then Abraham prayed for Abimelek and his household, and the wombs were opened and they could have babies again!

Abraham prayed for others so that they could have children while he was still childless!

I am learning that sometimes testimonies causes others to receive healing.

Let's have more confidence in God and pray for others.

one year!

It has been over a year since I was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. It was September 1, 2010.  I remember walking down the street near my office then.  This year, on 9/1/2011, I walked on the same street, full of gratitude.

Today I went in for my maintenance medicine. The blood test results and my blood pressure were perfect! I am in "partial remission" according to the doctor. I am on my way to a total remission. Praise the Lord!

When all fails, remember our God specializes in creating a path when there seems to be no hope.

One day at a time

In the very beginning of my journey of healing, I decided to choose life. (I learned it from Dodie Osteen's book.) Since then I have been choosing life one day at a time in the best way I know how. I wish I kept a journey every single day but I didn't because I was trying to just live literally everyday. Most of my energy went to just to eat well and sleep so that I could have enough energy to go to work and do the best I could. I never felt very sick, and I seemed to be living a regular life, but now I look back and I realize I had much less energy.

Now I am trying to write down all the scriptures I received from the LORD in one notebook.  Reading the scriptures with a Hebrew dictionary has given me great insight. I would like to share in my blog, but I haven't been organized enough to do so. I am happy to read those scriptures, to repeat and to think about it over and over. My heart becomes "full."

ひつじさん

ブログでひつじさんに出会いました。
今もひつじさんの癒しを信じていのります。
私の教会の友達でキモセラピーを始めた友達のためにも。
これからキモセラピーを始める友達のだんな様のためにも。
私と同じ肺がんといわれて、知り合いになった友達のためにも。
どんな状態であろうと息をしていれば決して遅くはないと、韓国のチョー先生は言っています。
言ったからといってそうならないこともあるけれど、私はそれでも信じることを選びます。

希望のないときにこそ信じるのが信仰。神様は奇跡をおこなう専門家なのです。
父なる神様、あなたの御言葉を信じています。

I pray for this man I saw on a blog and got to know a little. I pray for his healing, still believing.
I pray for a friend at church who started chemo therapy.
I pray for my friend's husband who is about to start chemo therapy.
I pray for a woman who called me because she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.
It is not too late as long as you are still breathing, says Dr. Cho from South Korea.
It does not always happen just because you declare something, but I choose to believe.

Faith is to believe when there seems to be no hope. God's specialty is to perform miracles.
My Father, I believe in your words.

August 5th, 2011

Well, the result was the same as last time. The tumor size is the same (abut 1 inch dia.), and it is still sucking up the sugar water (chemical they injected) but not much. I reject to dwell in this mode. I say no thank you to cooperate with cancer.

I will wait for the LORD.
All his promises are "yes." So I say "Amen!" through Jesus.

PETスキャンの結果は、前回と同じでした。がんのサイズは同じで、血液に注入された光る砂糖水（専門用語がわからない）を吸い込む量も同じ。大量ではありませんでしたが。でもこのままのモードでいるつもりはありません。がんと共存はしません。

私は主を待ち望みます。
かみさまの約束はすべてなされますから、私はただアーメンといってイエス様の御名によって同意するのみ。

August 4th, 2011

I saw my radiology tech for PET scan for the fourth time today. I remember the very first PET scan for my body. The tech looked very solemn from the distance and did not even look at me after the first scan. I felt like it was not so good. Today I went in as a very healthy person even though I don't have the proof yet. But everyday since I was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer, I have been doing good. It has been an amazing journey. Our God is an awesome God. He is good. All Jesus did was the Father's will. Jesus always healed people.

Advanced case of leprosy - Luke 5:12

This was the scripture for my devotional today. God can heal even the advanced case of leprosy!

Luke 5:12-13

New Living Translation (NLT)

Jesus Heals a Man with Leprosy

 ¹² In one of the villages, Jesus met a man with an advanced case of leprosy. When the man saw Jesus, he bowed with his face to the ground, begging to be healed. “Lord,” he said, “if you are willing, you can heal me and make me clean.” ¹³ Jesus reached out and touched him. “I am willing,” he said. “Be healed!” And instantly the leprosy disappeared.

癒しの祈りは続く。。。/ my healing prayer continues...

５０肩らしき痛みが去年から直らないので今日専門家にいきました。
昨日はPhysical Therapy.
今日のアポではレントゲンをとり、その画面を先生が見せてくれました。そのとき肩はなんともおもわなかったけど、そのとなりに例のTumorがはっきりくっきり写っていて、そんなにはっきり見えたのははじめてだったので思わず見入ってしまいました。

シーンとした肺の中にじっとしていたかたまり。

もっともっとしっかりとイエス様のところに、そして御言葉の上にたとうと、心を新たにした日でした。

I went to a physical therapy yesterday for a frozen shoulder. It has been going on since lase December. It hurt a lot and I asked her to stop at the therapy!  Then I  went to an orthopedist today. They took an X-ray of my right shoulder. When the doctor showed me the X-ray on the computer screen, my eyes were glued to the tumor in my lung. I could see it clearly due to the location of the tumor.  I had never seen it so clearly. It looked like it was floating silently in my lung. I renewed my vow to keep standing on Jesus and the word of God again.

God's word will never fail.

How we live, according to Deuteronomy 30:6

And the Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, so that you will love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live.    - Deuteronomy 30:6

I don't know exactly how God will circumcise my heart, but I understand that it is the matter of the heart and not the outward "Christian" things we do. Just like what Jesus teaches us. Where the Law says not to murder, Jesus says that hating someone is not different from killing someone. Law could hide your heart. Our hearts don't have to be involved when we deal with Law.  God wants us to open our hearts.

circumcision of our hearts =
enables us to love God with all our hearts and souls=
we begin to live (really live)

The enemy wants to destroy and kill, but Jesus came to give us life.

my understanding of Exodus 15:26

If you diligently, diligently listen/harken
to the voice of the LORD your God
and do what is right in his sight
and give ear/listen/weigh/ponder/give good heed
to what he says
and hedge about/protect all his bound (=engraved law)
I will cause NONE of the diseases/infirmities upon you,
which I cast in upon the Egyptians;
for I am the LORD Rapha who make you whole/heal.

God loves us so much.
I still don't understand where to draw a line and how to read the law in the OT after knowing Jesus but I see the Father's heart that loves us so much even in the law.

Chicago, here I am!

I am in Chicago to attend a wedding.
When we were informed of this wedding last summer, I was at the beginning of my journey to fight against cancer. I was wondering what condition I would be in. I was not sure if I would be able to go. Since then I learned that it was God's will for me to be healed, I was to keep believing the word of God, I was to know the word of God so that faith would come, and I believed.  There is no proof that the cancer is gone yet but I keep believing.

And I am in Chicago. It is amazing. I took 2 days off from work!

I was a little nervous to travel. I am physically fine, so there is no reason to be afraid, but I was a little nervous. Then I saw 2 feathers today. They suddenly came to my sight in the air. I had fun experiences with feathers in the past, so they remind me of God's encouragement. I smiled when I saw them. God is with me. God is so gracious!

Power of God to face Monday

I received God's power to face Monday after I attended the conference with Graham Cooke and Christa Black! My shoulder is getting healed. I can tell that it is getting better all of a sudden (yet gradually).
My shoulder injury seems to be related to how I feel about the office. It was getting negative. But God's ways are always right. Overcoming evil with good is the right path. Now I am taking one more step forward towards more freedom. I used to start feeling nervous on Sunday afternoon thinking about the pressure at work, even though I like the job, but this Sunday was different.  I choose not to follow the path of how I feel. Black Monday cannot get me now.

Hallelujah.

Faith revived with David Wilkrson's last message

The MRI result showed that I had adhesive capsulitis, bursitis, and tendinopathy.
I have been praying for my right shoulder but it is painful. I have a lot of stress at work, too. I am being negative. Lord, what should I do about my shoulder? I wake up in the middle of the night, weeping due to the stress from work. The shoulder pain does not help.

I was at the oncologist's office again, receiving the maintenance medication last Thursday. I was feeling very worn out. I was asking myself where the joy of the LORD was. I didn't have it. I was shocked. I reached to the newsletter in my purse. I was desperately trying to find the LORD's way again, then suddenly it came. 

Mr. David Wilkerson

Why do I forget that God' specialty is to give us hope when there seems to be no hope.

仕事がヘビーで超スピードでタイプをうちまくっていたら肩が１月あたりから痛くなり、そのうち直るだろうと思っていたら腕があがらなくなってしまいました。癌が見つかった肺と近いので主治医にそうだんしたら、MRIをオーダーしてくれました。で、結局四十肩とか五十肩とかいうものなのだとおもいます。（ちゃんと調べてない）　祈っていたし、人にも祈ってもらってるけれど同じ感じでした。MRIのあたりからなんか直ってきたみたいだけど、今度はますます腕があがらなくなってます。主よ、どうしましょう。。。と祈りながら、悲しんでいきました。仕事のストレスもすごくて（なんか意地悪されてるみたいに思えた）先週は夜中に急に目がさめて大なきをしてました。仕事のことを考えて。いままでの主からの喜びはどこへ行ったのかと、自分でも驚きです。どこにもない！！でも一生懸命探したら、答えがやってきました。先週のアポイントメントのときにDavid Wilkersonさんの最後のDevotional をよんでたら、どーんと来ました。主以外に希望はない！！　しってるはずなのに、突然新しい出来事のように私に教えてくれた言葉。これこそ生きた神様のメッセージだと思いました。そして受け取りました。　イエス様、ありがとうございます。

Dreams I had during chemo

First dream

I started to run away from a place that looked like a death house. I wrote about it somewhere in this blog.  It was right before the first chemo therapy.

Second dream

My husband was having me listen to some messages from The Bethel church in Redding, California. One of them was about a girl who can get a new body part for the person she is praying for. Then one night I had a dream. I was standing and looking up at the light blue sky with some clouds. I didn't know where it was. Then suddenly 2 right lungs came down and stopped in the middle of the air. (The cancer had been identified in my right lung.)  I could feel someone was standing next to me. After I stared at those two lungs for a short while, I said, "What am I doing? I need to grab the good lung!" (One was good, and the other was a bad lung.) I reached for the good lung, and I woke up.

Third dream

I was standing at a festival or something. Booths are there, and suddenly I was standing in front of a small table where a man was performing some kind of card magic. He moved his hands fast and something was done, but I didn't know what he did. Then the man said to me, "Didn't you get it? It means your liver is clear."

Some weeks later I received good news from the radiologist. The liver, lymph, and the bones were clear, and the size of the tumor decreased.

Benny Hinn

I decided to watch Benny Hinn one evening because I wanted to see some people healed and be encouraged. Have you heard of anyone placing hands on the screen with those TV evangelists and people are saved? I have. I thought I would try. (I know some people would laugh at me but I just thought I would try.) I knelt in front of the TV screen, placed my hands on the screen over Benny Hinns. He says, "Hmmm...Someone is healed from Lung cancer..."  Then he went on to say the person's name, and it was not mine. But you know what! This year I learned that I can received the crumbs that come off of the table, too. Immediately I said to myself , "I would take it!"  Through Benny Hinn or through Presbyterian's and Lutheran's faithful prayers, God can heal.

Yet another dream

I am still new to the church I attend. They are praying that more healing will happen at the church. They want to love God and love people. One of the pastors had said that he has not seen anyone healed after he prayed for them. He wants to see healing right in front of his eyes. I do, too. I appreciated his honesty. One Sunday morning I was wondering if I am going to that church or not (because my family goes somewhere else), then suddenly the pastor's serious face appeared right in front of me while I was asleep. I felt like maybe I was supposed to ask him to pray for me. I felt like it was God's way - using someone who said none had been healed after he prayed. God is full of grace! When I stood in front of him, he immediately said, "I had been looking for you." I knew I did the right thing that morning.

I need the presence of God

Mahesh Chavda

When the doctor remineds me that the maintenance medicine will stop working eventually, that I will die sooner or later, I ran fast to my Father tonight.  I resist the doctor's words and tried to wipe them off of my mind. I am not ignoring the fact that I am on the maintenance medicine, but I would rather acknowledge the promise of God. The only way I can be delivered from those unwanted words from the doctor and from the stress of work is to run to the Father's presence. I went to Mahesh Chavda's youtube, which I found the other day, and remained in the presence of God  in the film for awhile.

The glory of God is present if we ask for it. My Father's promise is still good. His words will not go back to Him in vain. They always accomplish their purpose. Our strength is in the presence of the glory of God.

主治医が　薬が効かなくなるのも時間の問題だ～と軽く言った時　彼から背を向けて父なる神様の元に走りよりました。彼の言葉を頭に残しておきたくない！開放されるには神様の臨在の中にいくしかないと知っているから、走りました。このYOUTUBEは以前みつけてお気に入りにしてあります。この場の力を借りて暫くその中にじっとして神様のそばにいました。
そして力をいただいたのです。神様の言葉に偽りはないのです。

Just like Kaleb - Joshua 14:11

In Joshua, Kaleb says this:

 I am still as strong today as the day Moses sent me out; I’m just as vigorous to go out to battle now as I was then.

He was 85 years old when he said this. I want to be like him.

I want to be a strong grandma when I have grandchildren someday!

Consecration means "filling of the hand" pt. 2 - Leviticus 9:1

This section is called Sh'mini (Eighth) and it starts with chapter 9.

Leviticus 9:1 (NIV)
On the eighth day Moses summoned Aaron and his sons and the elders of Israel. Here is the rest of chapter 9.

After the seven-day inaugural service(after their hands were filled), on the eighth day, the priests entered the tabernacle to minister. They performed the first sacrificial service of the nation. Moses AND Aaron went into the tabernacle (it used to be Moses alone!), and after they came out, Aaron blessed the people. Then the fire from heaven came down and consumed the alter offering!
All the people saw the glory of God.

Chapter 10
Then something happens. Aaron's sons did their own things and God's fire consumed them. The Bible says they offered "different fire"(or wrong kind of fire).

The people saw God's fire consuming the sacrifice and saw the glory of God first. Then they saw God's fire consuming the priests who offered wrong kind of fire.

Consecration is "filling of the hand." We save special time with God to be filled with His presence and thoughts, and that causes us to do God's will, being filled with the Holy Spirit. Not our own ideas.

Jesus, forgive me if I put my own thinking into action and assume that it is God's will. Please let me have what you give to me and I may be sent out by you. I am grateful for God's grace who will never give up on us.

Consecration is "filling of the hand" - pt. 1

Leviticus 8:22, 28, 29, 31, 33

22And he brought the other ram, the ram of consecration: and Aaron and his sons laid their hands upon the head of the ram. (KJV)

The underlined word is ordination in NIV and NAS.

It is consecration and ordination in Amplified Bible.


According to the Blue Letter Bible, the word for consecration/ordination ("millu" in Hebrew) is this.

According to the Strong's Dictionary, the Hebrew word "millu" also means "filling." Interesting.

F.B. Meyer says:

Consecration, according to the Hebrew word, means "filling the hand." Too many of us suppose that the consecrated soul renounces all - nay, it receives all. The nets are full of fish; the baskets are full of the broken pieces; the soul is full of grace and glory.

Thank you, LORD.

leviticus 6

I imagine that I was one of the Israelite.
I imagine the fire in the sky at night and white cloud in the blue sky during the day.

Exodus 13:21-22 (English Standard Version)

21And(A) the LORD went before them by day in a pillar of cloud to lead them along the way, and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, that they might travel by day and by night. 22The pillar of cloud by day and the pillar of fire by night did not depart from before the people.

 In Leviticus 6, the LORD told Moses to keep the fire going on the alter.
 Now they are staying in one spot and they still see the fire at night and white stuff in the sky during the day.

Leviticus 6:9 (ESV)

 ⁹ “Command Aaron and his sons, saying, This is the law of the burnt offering. The burnt offering shall be on the hearth on the altar all night until the morning, and the fire of the altar shall be kept burning on it.

I imagine fire at night and white smoke in the sky during the day.

I love it!

Easter and Passover

Every year I wonder and still don't know the answer to this one question.

Who decides when the Easter Sunday is?
A lot of people say, "I thought the passover always came right before the Easter." I thought so , too. But it still doesn't answer my question. I understand why Passover date changes every year. Their calender is different from our 'modern' or 'regular' calender. I can't fully explain but it has something to do with the moon. Then why doesn't the date of Easter change with it? Easter date changes every year (it seems like), but doesn't go along with the Passover day. I feel like it should either change according to Passover, or if it is ignoring the Jewish culture, I feel like it should stay on the same date every year. It is strange. Am I crazy to think like this?

A few years ago Easter happened before Passover! Can that happen?? Then I wondered when the day of Pentecost would be... but no one was talking about it around me.... Without a bias, I sincerely think that Passover date would be always right. Then the day of Pentecost comes 7 weeks after Passover since it is a Jewish event. I have a feeling that many Christians don't really connect the Jewish ceremony and this Pentecost event have some connections. I certainly didn't hear about it for many, many years until I started to be interested in the Jewish culture. We are not bound by law, but just as we would like to know everything about someone we love, I would like to know these things accurately, realizing that we are now living in grace at the same time.


As I started thinking about those things and started googling, I found this web site. A lot of Christian people may think I am crazy, but I would like to pay attention to what this person has to say.

12/11/09

Not because of my righteousness!

Deuteronomy 9. God repeats the same message 3 times when He wants to talk to us!

4 After the LORD your God has driven them out before you, do not say to yourself, “The LORD has brought me here to take possession of this land because of my righteousness.” No, it is on account of the wickedness of these nations that the LORD is going to drive them out before you.

5 It is not because of your righteousness or your integrity that you are going in to take possession of their land; but on account of the wickedness of these nations, the LORD your God will drive them out before you, to accomplish what he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

6 Understand, then, that it is not because of your righteousness that the LORD your God is giving you this good land to possess, for you are a stiff-necked people.

God is not a respecter of a person. Whosoever goes to Him can be saved. Whosoever goes to Him can be made whole, because of Jesus. Some people are offended if someone says, "healing is for everyone." It is true that even believers get sick and die. I don't have good explanations because I don't understand all that, either, but I can tell you that I was not offended. When some people told me about their healing from cancer right after I was first given the diagnosis of terminal cancer, I was afraid that healing may not be for me. Then someone told me that healing was for everyone, and I was not offended at all. I was given faith and hope. After that I had to run the race in front of me. I just kept believing while I was doing whatever was necessary and good for my body.

I did whatever I could do physically, but these verses remind me that God is the God who keeps promises. His words do not go back to Him in vain. His words always accomplish what He promises.

There is no other God like our Father.

Skin infection

Chapter 13 is about skin infection.

Dr. Feinberg in Walk Leviticus! says the infection is different from Hansen's Disease or contagious leprosy.

The title at the beginning of chapter 13 in English Standard Version says "Laws About Leprosy "and the second verse says "and it turns into a case of leprous disease." New American Standard Bible calls it leprosy also.  It is confusing...is it because of the nature of the Hebrew language?

I use New American Standard Bible for study, and New Living Translations when I try to capture the big picture instead of studying words. I have also been using King James version because I can check the corresponding Hebrew words.

In King James Version, it says "and it be in the skin of his flesh like the plague of leprosy." It says 'like the plague of leprosy.' So I see that it is not leprosy in the original language.

Victory in Jesus

Last September my oncologist told me I had 6 months to 2 years to live, and he said there was probably no chance of remission. It was stage IV lung cancer.

Today, after 6 months, I had the result from 3rd PET scan. The tumor continues to decrease in size. My friend (PA) said it could be scar. Something still showed in the scan, but the radiologist stated that there was no evidence of avid activities.

I thank you, Jesus, for bringing me the healing! The scan still shows something, but I believe it will continue to shrink. Because God's word says, 

What do ye imagine against the LORD? he will make an utter end: affliction shall not rise up the second time. (Nahum 1:9)

My Father spoke to me through his words, dreams, and faithful family and friends' prayers and support.  He continues to prove His faithfulness.

Joy is springing up within my heart.

It's just my opinion

Usually I don't tell people my opinion. I am quiet, but I do have opinions.

I think about "being religious." What does it really mean? I think it depends on who defines it.

A few years ago my son wanted to go to a concert of a certain group. The name represents something opposite from God. I don't think a lot of people know the meaning of the name, but I happened to know it because I saw a scary picture of that name in my English-Japanese dictionary over 35 years ago. I was amazed that I remembered it the minute I heard the name. When my son mentioned the name, my face must have changed because he asked me if everything was okay. He loved God then just like he does now. I don't want anyone to be drawn into something that looks like something harmless, when actually it may well be, and the name concerned me. It was deceiving, I thought. So I explained the reason why I don't like it.

He said, "Mom, Christianity is not a religion. I can go to the concert and still love God, don't worry," or something like that. I said, "If Christianity is a relationship with God and not a religion, why do you want to go to that concert of that group with that name?"  Being religious or choosing out of love for God?  Am I being religious? I must have looked like a religious mom, but I believed I was guiding him into the position where he could choose a path because of love; love for God, and not because he was a good Christian. 

I feel the same about some cute fortune-telling items. There are so many of them! I ignore them as much as I can because I used to depend on those things to guide my happiness. After Jesus became my Lord, I do my best to ignore them all, because if I open myself up to those things, my heart will think about it. Jesus is my Lord and God. I totally ignore some popular movies, too.. People say those movies remind them of righteousness and evil, God and evil. They maybe right, and they may cause you to think of God more, but I don't want them in my heart because I tend to dwell in the image for a long time. Just like former alcoholics don't want to have a drop once in awhile, it is better for me to stay out of those things. : ) I stay quiet when my friends and family (except my own children) are open to it, though, because this is my opinion! I am not trying to change them.

Many years ago a theology came to my mind. I named it "a neighbor's underwear theology." My kids used to run away when I use this theology to explain my thought.  My theory is like this:

If I just have my neighbor's underwear in my husband's and my room for no reason, would it be okay? Of course not. But I can say to my husband, "I have no feeling for it, nor does it do anything to me. It's totally harmless. It doesn't have any power over me, so why is it wrong? I still love you."

The underwear has no business being in my room.  That is exactly my point! Fortune telling items and movies have no business being in my life. I don't want their help to cause me to think of God. God says he is a jealous God. Lord, may you be the only one in my life!

The earthquake!

Lord... the people in my country need a lot of help!!

The shout of the Lord

Today's theme in my mind was a song of Paul Wilbur from The Watchman.

When the shout of the Lord is in our camp 
It's the sound of victory
For the power of His voice will rout the enemy
There's no weapon that can defeat us here
We will triumph on every side
More than conquerors through the might of Adonai
Though the walls may stand before us
Hem us in on every side
They come crashing down 
When they hear the sound
Of the name above all others...

Amen and amen!

Proverbs 4:20-22

...in basically NLT, with some explanation from the Hebrew dictionary.

Pay attention (= prick up ears), my child, to what I say.
Listen carefully (= stretch ears).
Don't lose sight of my words.
Let them penetrate deep within your heart;
for they bring life and radiant health (= medicine, cure, deliverance) to anyone
who discovers (= attain, acquire) their meaning.


God really wants us to focus on what he says. He doesn't favor one person. ANYONE who discovers, studies and finds the true meaning of his words can receive radiant health from them. Anyone!!

日本語には耳の穴をほじくってよーく聞きけ。。なんていいますが、それがこの”Ｐａｙ　ａｔｔｅｎｔｉｏｎ”にあたる言葉にぴったり当てはまって、なんだかうれしくなりました。

The word of God heals

I was feeling like my new med. was not working because side effects seemed to be strong this time.

Then I listened to the healing message CD's and studied the Bible. What a difference it makes. It is so simple. I need to keep being in the word. The word of God heals.

I have to keep living in his words. Even if I did not have any diseases, that is how God wants us to live.

The word of God makes us whole.

MRI again, and Hallelu-jah!

I just came home from a two-week trip to Japan to visit my family, and I had two days to get back to work. Also I had an appointment for another MRI. It was all on Monday. I had to sleep enough during the weekend so that I would not be tired on Monday at work. On Monday I left early to work, then went to get an MRI (I fell asleep in that noisy thing, praise God), and went back to work. I felt rushed. I felt like I did not ask enough people to pray for me. I started textting one of my friends, but before I could send it the MRI tech came to get me. I felt a little nervous, thinking that I may not have prayed enough, so I asked the MRI tech if she went to church. She smiled and said, "No," firmly. I then decided I was going to just trust God and not worry about other people's prayer for me. I just decided to leave everything in God's hands, again. I know God will remind my friends about me supernaturally if He decided to do so.

All healing comes from God.

On Wednesday my husband and I saw the radiologist who did the CyberKnife treatment on my brain, and the specialist who studied the MRI results.They showed us two pictures of my brain and gave us wonderful news. My brain is okay. No more lesions are found.

Praise the LORD!


Thank you, Jesus, for healing my brain.

On the day God will act...

Will the day come when my God act? Or has He already come? I feel like I am still waiting for the day when God will act on my behalf.

“But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings. 

And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture. 

On the day when I act, you will tread upon the wicked as if they were dust under your feet,” 

says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies.    Malachi 4:2-3 (NLT)

Some people wanted to pray for my feet at church without knowing why. I was thrilled that my feet were getting ready to leap with joy.