tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64837946661272943372024-03-12T20:22:13.721-07:00Desiring to know the LORD more...Taking His Words as medicine, for they are giving me life!ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.comBlogger169125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-21590967635026332882013-12-13T00:35:00.002-08:002013-12-13T00:36:08.124-08:00I am recovring at home.God is amazing.<br />
God is keeping me alive! His words are true.<br />
Praise the LORD.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-46862527877739308182013-07-26T22:49:00.004-07:002013-07-26T22:50:51.021-07:00other people's ministriesI just found out that pastor Benny Hinn remarried to his ex-wife in March! (Oops I should watch the news sometimes...) I am very happy for them. He proclaims Jesus boldly all over the world and a lot of people listen to him. I didn't think he would fall apart like that. I am sorry I didn't pray for his marriage but I am so glad other people around him did. People talk badly about many tv evangelists but I like them. Why should I hate them? You don't have to listen to all of them... I don't.<br />
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I would rather listen to someone who is passionate about God than someone who always points out what is wrong with other ministries. I wish that those who point out other ministries' faults would preach what they believe passionately rather than comparing "wrong" ministries to theirs. Focus on your positive part, please!!<br />
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This is just my heart's cry. <br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-61047186870465337912013-05-14T21:49:00.000-07:002013-05-27T08:01:07.571-07:00No doubt, no fearThe scan in February did not show anything on my rib. I kept telling the doctors that I was in pain but neither of them seemed to be concerned. They thought I might have cracked it...There was a new spot in my pelvic bone instead. My main oncologist sent me to a specialist in UC Davis. I
wasn't going to do anything they might suggest but my husband and I
went there to hear their opinion. I did not qualify for the trial
medication at UC Davis because "the tumor was not big enough." It was
good news.<br />
I had a new spot in my brain according to the previous MRI. We are watching the one in my brain.<br />
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In spite of all this I am happy now hat I am totally medicine free!!! <br />
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Now God's promise is really the only hope. There is nowhere else I can go to. I will still stick with my diet to care for my body. In the meantime, I keep walking with Him and talk to Him. As I read the healing scriptures and read/hear healing messages, I am building more relationship with God, and not just saying/reading/listening these words.<br />
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Then I had another MRI and PET on the same day just recently. How many times can a person do a PET scan??? This was my 10th one, I think... From the look of the nurse at the scan, I had a feeling the result was not good, and it wasn't. Cancer has spread once again.<br />
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The doctor wanted me to come in right away but I did not call him until the end of the day. I was at work when he left the message, and I wasn't going to let it upset me because I knew I was going to decline treatments. It turned out to be good to wait. As I was working at my desk, I had a chance to review God's promises in my mind and I remembered that from the beginning there was nothing the modern medicine could do. My doctors are super brilliant and kind, and they squeezed their brains and they cared for me. Thank you, doctors for all your efforts!! But now I must go on. Cancers usually try to come back. What am I going to do?<br />
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RESIST IT!!! <br />
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I am also learning about our incredible bodies. I apologized to my body for not caring for it properly. Now I want it to rest well from all the chemicals and radiations. I pray shalom over my body, and I pump in a lot of carrot juice. : )<br />
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I love the fact that one Christian doctor called the vegetable "lowly carrots." A lot of cancer patients use carrot juice and get better. I think it is God's way!! God uses common things/people to perform miracles.<br />
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I am also reading a lot of books written by Dr. Toru Abo. He is a renowned immunologist and he said not to do chemo or radiation or surgery, and he also calls the cancer cells "WEAK." He is not the only one who says to stay away from chemo or radiation. Dr. Hiromi Shinya, who is an MD in Japan and who also has a clinic in NY, also says the same thing. Well known people like Dustin Hoffman goes to see him.<br />
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My body has been ill, and now I am taking care of it better by doing good things to it. : ) <br />
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Praise God who created our wonderful bodies.<br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-80429216633094487632013-03-01T22:42:00.001-08:002013-03-01T22:51:22.573-08:00Personalized Isaiah 41:10-He tells me not to be afraid because he is all around me.<br />
He tells me not to look around for help because He is my God.<br />
He tells me he will not just strengthen me but he will also surround me and protect me, and he will even maintain me with his mighty hand.<br />
I will behold those that were glowing in anger become pale.<br />
They shall be non-existing, and my adversary shall be loosed and perish!<br />
I shall seek them and shall not find them.<br />
The adversary who was contending with me shall be non-existing.<br />
My God tells me He is the one who will cleave to my right hand, commanding me, "Do not fear, I will help you."<br />
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To be honest, I have some pain and it was worst on the day I had another PET scan.<br />
My heart is fixed on Jesus, though.<br />
So I choose not to partner with fear. <br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-417763682073957072012-12-11T22:57:00.001-08:002013-01-22T21:19:31.404-08:00No diesease is seen I was asking for NAD or NED. NAD stands for no active disease. NED stands for no evidence of disease. I held on to someone's chest x-ray report (without the personal information) which said, "unremarkable chest x ray."<br />
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I was asking God to let me hold the evidence like this in my hand.<br />
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I did it the other day.<br />
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It was not NAD or NED or "unremarkable chest x ray" because even though I could not see anything in the film, the doctor saw something. But it was scars.<br />
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It said "no acute process." My physician's assistant friend said it was the same as NAD!<br />
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The answer to my prayer quietly came to me on that day I got my report.<br />
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I am in awe. Thank you Jesus for your goodness, grace and loving kindness. Thank you for healing me. Everyday in past 2+ years has been an amazing miracle. I held an evidence in my hand!!!<br />
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X rays can't tell if one has cancer or not. But it was the x ray that showed something in the beginning. Now the mass is gone. The next scan will be in March 2013. <br />
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Thank you,<br />
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レントゲンのレポートを手に入れました。アメリカでは医療の書類を扱っているところから自分でもらいにいくことができます。全く何も写っていないという結果を見たかったけど、ちょっと違う風にかかれてました。日本語でどのようにいえばいいのかわからないけど、とにかく、2年前に写っってた怪しい影はもうないのでした!!癌があるかどうかは来年3月のスキャンをしないとわからないのですが、でもレントゲンに何も写っていなかったっていう証拠を手にするということは私の2年間の祈りの答えでした。<br />
<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-88213229479674731272012-12-04T22:29:00.000-08:002013-01-22T21:16:27.452-08:00Clear lung in X-rayIn 2010 an X-ray showed a mass in my lung which turned out to be stage IV lung cancer. The doctor said 6 months to 2 years to live, but my friends said not to receive what the doctor said. I googled stage IV lung cancer and many patients recommended not to think about the prognosis. I did many different things to cling to God more tightly than before because I don't see much good news for stage IV lung cancer patients in the medical world. But every single day God encouraged me in many different ways. Every single day I smiled and got up out of bed with much energy and went to work. I think it was amazing. In the beginning I had a lot of appointments. I used to get up extra early and went to work, went to appointments, and still worked 8 hours. Only God's encouraging power and prayers of family and friends and even strangers gave me ability to do it.<br />
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Today I had an x-ray. After all these expensive fancy scans and radiation and all that, I had an x-ray.<br />
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At the beginning I said to God I wanted to be free from cancer and from medication. I could see God was healing me, not instantly as I hoped, but gradually yet surely. I build up my confidence and faith more and more. But I did not know how I could stop the medications I take via I. V. and orally. The doctor said I would take them indefinitely. - I did not want to. Scan after scan showed the residue of tumor. It did not seem so active per scan but it was there, so the doctor did not want me to stop. Yet in my mind I was feeling like I need to stop the strong meds if I want to be well.<br />
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At church a friend of mine said,"Let's pray about that," and we did. Well, a couple of weeks later the oncologist said we can talk to the radiation oncologist and ask about CyberKnife possibility. The radiation oncologist seemed to have been waiting for me to come. I don't know how true it is but I felt like I sensed him expecting me. He asked me what I would expect from this. I said the cancer to be gone, and he said, "and?" so I said medicine free. He nodded because he knew that's what I said many months ago. He said my oncologist must agree with me, too. So they talked, and they must have agreed, and so I had the treatment done.<br />
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The x-ray looked clear. The doctor showed me one scan on one side and today's x-ray on the other side on the screen. The earlier one showed some cloudy part in the lung, but we did not see anything on today's. I hid the older one with my hand and asked the doctor what he would say about the x-ray if he did not see the other one. I was so excited so I don't remember exactly what he said but he said something like it would be a normal x-ray. He said to meditate on it as a Christmas gift or something like that.<br />
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Only God can time everything to work so good like this. I believe God. <br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-59560246825567878742012-11-17T16:02:00.000-08:002012-11-17T16:03:22.935-08:00Moving on after CyberKnifeOn Halloween Day I had my first treatment. The day before that the machine was not functioning well, and they postponed my schedule. If it was in the past, I would have worried about it, then I wouldn't have liked to start the treatment on Halloween! But I now know that God is much bigger than any of these things. A well-known evangelist in Africa once said he only felt the presence of the Lord when other people were feeling the evil spirits around them. All we need to know is God's presence!! All of a sudden I got nervous and my heart started to beat fast right before my first appointment, but a thought came to my mind and I was saying that over and over. In my heart I kept repeating "If I doubt God now, then that would mean I am putting Jesus on the cross again. If I doubt now, that would mean I am saying Jesus' cross was not sufficient." Jesus' cross WAS and IS sufficient!! Who am I to argue that?? Then, I have to stick with the truth. Tears came down at first, but I was at peace. Now I am done with all 4 treatments. The radiation will keep working inside, and I will have an x-ray in December. God is reversing my condition. I don't know why some people are healed instantly and why some people take time to be healed, but in each step I decided to seek the Lord. It is about lifestyle of choosing to believe and clinging to Him. ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-22587859040766440182012-10-19T19:00:00.000-07:002012-10-23T19:06:05.171-07:00cyberknife testToday I went to my CyberKnife doctor's office. They tested and see if the robot will be able to catch the movement of my lung and the nodule. The doctor said we can go ahead and plan the treatment!<br />
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Only Jesus could have arranged this. From the very beginning when I needed help, I was already in a place where things just happened. Co-workers said over and over that I was at the right place at the right time. In the office was a doctor who is the wife of CyberKnife doctor. Otherwise I wouldn't have know about it, I don't think. <br />
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Galatians 5:1<br />
So Christ has really set you free now make sure that you stay free and don't get tied up in the slavery to the Law. <br />
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I heard this on the radio today. The Christian radio station was reading this verse. My pride thought, "O I know this verse," but the Lord meant it at the moment because right after I thought this thought the scripture was read and it pierced my heart (like you have a crush on a movie star at the first sight). Now after I studied healing scriptures and learned from many people, this "Law" has more aspect than the Law I used to think...like rules and regulations. Because the sickness is the curse of the law!! But Jesus carried all of it on the cross!! So He has done that, now I have to make sure that I stay free from the slavery to the law. In this short verse God spoke to me a lot in the short time while I was at work. (I sometimes stay at work and I am all by myself because I am a data entry person, then I turn on the Christian radio station. )<br />
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Surely God's goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. (Psalm 23)<br />
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I thank God who is so gracious and powerful!!!ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-30118701579630765592012-10-16T21:49:00.002-07:002012-11-26T21:06:16.842-08:00I am hearing...<blockquote class="tr_bq">
According to your faith</blockquote>
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...is the first one I noticed that was present in my mind lately. It might be God, I thought. Then I thought since I think God might be speaking to me, I should pray. So I prayed to God and told him what my heart's desire is.<br />
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Then... <br />
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<span class="text Ps-23-6" id="en-NIV-14242">Surely your goodness and love will follow me</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-23-6">all the days of my life,</span></span><br />
<span class="text Ps-23-6">and I will dwell in the house of the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-23-6">forever.</span></span><br />
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I repeated this part over and over and over because I felt happy as I was saying it. Then it felt like I was prophesying over my life. : ) Everyone should try this. <br />
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The third one, which started to come in my mind today was "I do not share my glory with anything/anyone else." It was a funny timing because I just saw the radiation oncologist who told me the CyberKnife will most likely lead me to a total remission from cancer (used to be stage IV) and also to a freedom from medications! And we are planning to have it done soon. I rejoice in God's ways. I take it as God's way. In the past I felt I was stuck with medication the rest of my life and I didn't know how I was going to be free from it. I asked my doctor many times to let me stop the meds to give my built-in immune system a chance to be strong again but he said no. But now CyberKnife will end all of it just like that! Who else could have led me to this path? I give glory to God!! Thank you, Jesus! There is truly power in Jesus' name. <br />
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He is the one who walked with me all this time and encouraged me.<br />
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with thanks,<br />
<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-11996207943978165882012-09-13T21:00:00.000-07:002012-09-15T07:54:22.819-07:00God's preferred-will to offer to the mankind - Revelation 4:11 Revelation 4:11 (NIV)<br />
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<span class="text Rev-4-11" id="en-NIV-30780">“You are worthy, our Lord and God,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Rev-4-11">to receive glory and honor and power,</span></span><br />
<span class="text Rev-4-11">for you created all things,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Rev-4-11">and by your will they were created</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Rev-4-11">and have their being.”</span></span></blockquote>
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Revelation 4:11 (KJV)<sup class="versenum"> </sup><br />
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Thou
art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou
hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.</blockquote>
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<a href="http://concordances.org/greek/2307.htm" target="_blank"> http://concordances.org/greek/2307.htm</a><br />
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<b>2307</b> <i>thélēma</i> (from <a href="http://concordances.org/greek/2309.htm">2309</a> <i>/thélō</i>, "to desire, wish") – properly, a <i>desire</i> (<i>wish</i>), often referring to <i>God's </i>"<i>preferred-will</i>," i.e. His "<i>best-offer</i>" to people which can be <i>accepted or rejected</i>.</blockquote>
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I have trouble answering questions in a bible study often. I don't know the answer and I don't know how people get the answer they get. I picked up a study book by Derek Prince. The very first question says, "For what purpose was the mankind created?" I was supposed to read Revelation 4:11. My Bible says it was His will. I struggle for awhile and I cheated and looked at the answer. The answer is "for His pleasure." Is his will the same as his pleasure? It must be. But how? I am not satisfied. I cannot go on! So I did some research!<br />
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Rev.4:11 says we were created for his pleasure in some translations. Others say we were created by His will. <br />
Can we say his will = his pleasure?<br />
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I don't get it. I think there is a slight difference. I have difficulty using the word pleasure in this case. I think it is mainly because a lot of translations say "will." According to the link above, the word also means desire. If I were a translator, I might pick the word "desire." It was his desire. The link above explains that the word means His preferred-will to offer to the mankind. We can take it or leave it. My image of the word "pleasure" is like God is sitting on the throne and created people for entertainment. But after knowing that the original word for pleasure also means "His preferred-will to offer to the mankind" I feel very happy and alive. <br />
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It was his best offer, and his preferred will, and desire to create our existence for Him. Let's take it! I take it!<br />
<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-1108354307530959452012-08-05T15:03:00.005-07:002012-10-27T13:36:06.901-07:00another dream in January 2012In January I had another dream. I totally forgot about it until I saw it in my notebook... I saw this dream at the end of my sleep. I saw two hand (wrist down) holding a blue, glass-looking ball as if it was being presented to me. After I looked at it for awhile, I said to my self, "It might be a good idea to get it since it looks like it is presented to me." Then I reached out. I hesitated to get it at first, then I decided to get it.<br />
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I had forgotten about it, because I didn't know what it was and I didn't expect to see anything in the Bible that looks like that.<br />
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One day I was listening to Graham Cooke's CD, then I learned that I need to ask God, "what does it mean?" I realized I had never really asked about anything in this manner. So I asked God what it meant. I apologized to God for not asking because it shows my heart is not really expecting the answer from God...<br />
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A week later at church, a brother was talking about another brother who was seeing a vision of round blue balls floating (?) in the hallway. He even painted them during the church service. Later I went to talk to a man at the front about it and he said that they represented healing. I thought God answered my question.<br />
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The following day while at work, I said to God, "So you were offering me healing," then I felt I heard God replied, "It was life ( that he was giving me)." What do I do? I take it!<br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-36291612159927281242012-07-21T09:12:00.000-07:002012-07-21T09:12:01.732-07:00Brain MRI 7/2012I had another MRI on my brain.<br />
<br />I was confident in God and also in physical condition. I have aches and pains but I felt my immune system was doing good, but a few days before the MRI I was in a spiritual battle. Negative thoughts came in and tried to bring the very negative imagination - like I was going to start deteriorating.. Then I realized God hasn't changed his mind. Jesus died for me once, and that was enough!! I concentrated my mind on God, trying to just focus on His goodness. He is the only one who can heal me. I listened to encouraging CD's like Graham Cooke's. They helped me tremendously. He assures us that God is on our side. When we are with him, we are battling from the winning side. I shouted in my mind, "Jesus!" many times...<br />
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The result was good!! My brain is good.<br />
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Praise and glory to God!! Thank you, Jesus.<br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-2587607045263830332012-07-16T23:15:00.001-07:002012-07-16T23:15:45.002-07:00My mission<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<span class="versetext" id="1sa15-18" style="display: inline;"><span class="versenum">18</span>
and the <span class="strongs">LORD</span> <span class="strongs">sent</span> you on a <a href="" name="a"></a><span class="strongs">mission</span>, and <span class="strongs">said</span>, '<a href="" name="1"></a><span class="strongs">Go</span> and <span class="strongs">utterly</span> <span class="strongs">destroy</span> the <span class="strongs">sinners</span>, the <span class="strongs">Amalekites</span>, and <span class="strongs">fight</span> against them <span class="strongs">until</span> they are <span class="strongs">exterminated</span>.'
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<span class="versetext" id="1sa15-19" style="display: inline;"><span class="versenum">19</span>
<span class="strongs">"Why</span> then did you not <span class="strongs">obey</span> the <span class="strongs">voice</span> of the <span class="strongs">LORD</span>, <a href="" name="2"></a>but <span class="strongs">rushed</span> upon the <span class="strongs">spoil</span> and <span class="strongs">did</span> <span class="strongs">what</span> was <span class="strongs">evil</span> in the <span class="strongs">sight</span> of the <span class="strongs">LORD</span> ?" - I Samuel 15:17-19</span></blockquote>
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I have been in this waiting mode for awhile after chemo is done, and sometimes my mind tries to imagine something negative. I have been learning to fight and to stay under God's favor but one day I almost accepted that I will start deteriorating, then the LORD spoke to me through these verses as if to say, "I told you I will heal you completely but why are you now turning away from it?" That is right!! I received so many promises and why then do I doubt him now? I repented. God is always ready to reach out to me.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-6948064996810148212012-04-28T22:32:00.000-07:002012-05-11T22:50:43.872-07:00my heart is fixed (Psalm 112:7)<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<div class="heading passage-class-0">
<h3>
<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+112%3A7&version=KJV" target="_blank">Psalm 112:7</a></h3>
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King James Version (KJV)</div>
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<sup class="versenum" id="en-KJV-15811">7</sup><span style="color: red;">He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the LORD.</span></div>
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This was in the devotional. What a good timing! As I was meditation on the words, then I realized I had to overcome my bad expectations in my heart. I say I believe then why do I worry about the bad news? The medical world clearly doesn't have an answer for me according to the doctors. And they are specialists and they are truly brilliant people. I had to fix my heart to trust the LORD. I almost did not want to have the scan done any more. I remembered reading Dodie Osteen did not go back for a check up while she was recovering.<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">The scan result </span><br />
The result of the scan showed some illumination in my bone, though better. The tumor in the lung is still there. The doctor says "Let's keep doing the same treatment (maintenance med, not chemo)." We will keep doing the same thing. My hope is to quit the strong meds. I was somewhat disappointed at the appointment, to be honest, but when I came home and started reading the scan report word by word, I was more encouraged. The bone lesions are responding to the treatment from January, and the tumor in the lung is the same, stable. My PA friend explained to me that it must be covered by scar tissues because the doctor who read the scan did not call it "tumor." He called it "fibrosis" and "scarring tissue."<br />
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In the meantime I will keep moving with the LORD, clinging to Him. It is the fact that He is taking care of me. Everyday is a miracle day. Even at work I do my best to live and know that the LORD is God. I am not a preacher or teacher or ministry coordinator or anything like that, but the best I can do right now is to know that the LORD is God. <br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-50848643233587559702012-04-25T21:15:00.002-07:002012-05-11T22:51:48.079-07:00My Redeemer (Isaiah 41)<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Isaiah%2041:11-14,Isaiah%2049:25,Isaiah%2054:15,Isaiah%2054:17&version=AMP" target="_blank">Isaiah 41:11-14</a><br />
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<sup class="versenum" id="en-AMP-18463">11</sup><span style="color: #cc0000;">Behold, all they who
are enraged and inflamed against you shall be put to shame and
confounded; they who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall
perish. </span><sup class="versenum" id="en-AMP-18464" style="color: #cc0000;">12</sup><span style="color: #cc0000;">You shall
seek those who contend with you but shall not find them; they who war
against you shall be as nothing, as nothing at all.</span><br />
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<sup class="versenum" id="en-AMP-18465">13</sup>For I the Lord your God hold your right hand; I am the Lord, Who says to you, Fear not; I will help you!</div>
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I feel like God is saying something to me that those who are against me will be put to shame and become as nothing and perish. I looked for them (via scan) but I will not find them because God made them as nothing, nothing AT ALL.<br />
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It is such a perfect chapter for me at this time. I smiled a big smile. I said, "Really?" to God. I don't have the result of the scan yet. Yesterday I felt down a little, started to think about and prepare for a not-so-good report, then I went to the word again (like I did again and again), then the life of God started to bubble up inside of me. There is no reason to stop rejoicing now.<br />
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My Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel! My father is God. (I am bragging!) Thank you, Father for giving me life. <br />
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<br />ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-75927079447388289592012-04-19T22:46:00.000-07:002012-05-11T22:52:57.427-07:00to stand firm (Ephesians)<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%206%20:10-18&version=NLT" target="_blank">http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%206%20:10-18&version=NLT</a><br />
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<span class="text Eph-6-10"><sup class="versenum">10<span style="color: #cc0000;"> </span></sup><span style="color: #cc0000;">A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.</span></span><span style="color: #cc0000;"> </span><span class="text Eph-6-11" id="en-NLT-29309" style="color: #cc0000;"><sup class="versenum">11 </sup>Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil.</span><span style="color: #cc0000;"> </span><span class="text Eph-6-12" id="en-NLT-29310" style="color: #cc0000;"><sup class="versenum">12 </sup>For we<sup class="footnote" value="[<a href="#fen-NLT-29310a" title="See footnote a">a</a>]">[<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%206%20:10-18&version=NLT#fen-NLT-29310a" title="See footnote a">a</a>]</sup> are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">God's whisper at work</span><br />
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At work I started to hear "...having done all, stand firm." I never felt these verses from Ephesians so closely in my past. Today, I read them with reverence. I am in a battle. So is everyone else. I am not the only one. God is encouraging me to stand firm. My appointment for the next scan is approaching. <br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">God's humor at work</span><br />
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The other day my computer at work froze for a little while. I needed to keep printing many forms that came on line, but it got stuck and I could not print this person's form. I hit "enter" several times. Then the next screen popped up. Because I hit enter many times, there are several duplicates. I kept deleting many pages and I saw the same name over and over.....and I smiled. The person's name was "Miracle."ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-33531435012639836612012-04-15T22:37:00.000-07:002012-04-15T22:37:53.115-07:00worship night tonightI went to a worship night at my church. My daughter and her roommate went, too. The most beautiful thing I saw/heard tonight was the two college girls (one of them is mine) worshiping Jesus, singing like, " I am made to worship you..." Ooo, may God bless the next generation!! <br />
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Healing was mentioned in songs many times. Jesus' power includes healing.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-46335971718233455252012-04-14T23:14:00.001-07:002012-05-11T22:54:32.966-07:00God says not to look around for help - Isaiah 41I was reading some healing verses and a well-known verse from Isaiah caught my attention.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Do not fear, I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God....</span></blockquote>
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Then I went to my Hebrew dictionary.<br />
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<li>with you = The prime root word has meanings like "overshadowing by huddling together." This word (#5973) has meaning like against, before, beside, among, between, in...</li>
<li>be dismayed= gaze at (for help), inspect, consider, bewildered, depart, look (away), etc...</li>
<li> strengthen = to be alert, on foot</li>
<li>yea = more over, furthermore, yet, even</li>
<li>help = surround, protect, aid, succor</li>
<li>uphold = sustain, maintain, retain</li>
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Then my conversation with God went like this:<br />
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"Do not be afraid! I am <u>all over</u> you." (After reading the description in the dictionary, I understood the word as this. My heart jumps with joy.)<br />
"Do not look around for help because <i><b>I am</b></i> your God. I will let you stand on your own your feet and strengthen them." (Then I remember there were no feeble men in the tribe as the Israelite were leaving Egypt.)<br />
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"More over (or better yet), I will surround you, protect, and aid you."<br />
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"That is not all I will do. More over , I will maintain you with my strong right hand." (He will "maintain" me! Ooo I want to be off the maintenance medications! Okay, let's keep reading.)<br />
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I haven't look up the rest of the scriptures yet, but it is lovely. Especially the next sentence. I am in awe.<br />
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"You will seek them but will not find them."<br />
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I am keeping these words in my heart. Lord, I thank you.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-41667484826767098272012-04-11T22:28:00.001-07:002012-05-11T22:54:58.165-07:00Wait for the LORD to act...How long is the battle going to last? When I was stressed from work, I feel as if something or somebody is trying to make me quit working! But when I realize that it is not God at all, then I recover and the condition of the heart changes. When the condition of the heart changes, things change. I recognize the power of believing God in my heart. God drives out the darkness. Then I saw in the Bible where it said to wait for the LORD to act, and I felt like the LORD is telling me that the day the LORD will act is coming towards me! Is it coming soon? In the meantime, I keep speaking to the mountain!!!ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-77253568190113341502012-04-11T22:26:00.000-07:002012-05-11T22:55:07.642-07:00highest regards on God's wordsWhat am I doing?!<br />
I confess that I never felt I had enough courage to join a support group for cancer survivors. I may sound selfish, or someone may even say I am in denial, but I wanted to keep my eyes on the LORD and didn't want anything/anybody that comes between me and God. Lately I started doing some research. It is good to be educated, but I was doing it instead of reading and searching the scriptures. Then I started to feel down...<br />
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The scriptures, messages, and teachings for healing tell me to put highest regards on God's words. My heart agrees. Why am I looking for an answer somewhere else then? I repented. Chemo, radiation, juicing, herbs, natural treatment, and other approach are good because we take care of our bodies, which is the temple of God. But without the word of God, they are in vain.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-49465404330187806092012-03-09T20:36:00.000-08:002012-03-09T20:36:12.203-08:00radiation and trip to japanBoth my parents' birthdays are in February. This year they turned 88 and 77 years old. For quite a while I couldn't decide when in the winter time I should go to visit them. In my prayer one day I felt good about going in February so I picked the dates, and then I found out that I needed to have radiation on my bones. I thought about bad scenario but decided to go on after I talked to my husband. I ordered the ticket, then I asked the radiation oncologist to schedule me before the departure date. (selfish?)<br />
They scheduled me to have a radiation session everyday for 2 weeks. It ended right before my trip. The treatment took only about 10 minutes everyday. The very first day on the table in the radiation room, a strange thing happened within me. I was suddenly overwhelmed by the Lord's goodness right before the radiation was going to hit me, and I was crying. Everybody there thought I was sad. When you think about my situation, that is understandable. One therapist was in tears for me, too. But I wasn't sad. My strength and joy have always come from the Lord. His presence was there, and I was overwhelmed by the goodness of the Lord. I keep trusting His healing power. Gospel and healing come together. It is in the Bible.<br />
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My family was happy to see me. I gave testimony of God's goodness at my small church. I spent most of my time at home. I enjoyed walking in the cold, snowy weather as the snow was hitting my face from under the umbrella. One of my happy moment was to see my mother believing Jesus more. <br />
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Life is precious and I thank Jesus for giving it to me.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-47376255447139594352012-02-18T23:09:00.002-08:002012-05-11T22:56:09.861-07:00Not bowing down to other gods (Exodus 23:26)This is something I learned from Exodus 23 where it talks about God's blessing. This is a simple understanding of an ordinary mom who don't have a specific degree.<br />
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Exodus23:26 says God will bless my bread and water, and will take sickness away from the midst of us. The beginning of the verse in my note says, "<span style="color: #cc0000;">And so</span>." I don't remember which translation it came from, but I thought there must be something I need to do before God blesses my food and water. Of course I know God is merciful, and I don't understand deep and difficult theology but I thought there might be something I might want to pay attention to. So I went back a few verses. Then I saw that God wants us to get rid of other gods utterly. I saw how important it is to God.<br />
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We are not to <br />
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<li>serve them</li>
<li>do after their (other gods' people) works or follow their example.</li>
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<li>destroy </li>
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their standing images.<br />
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In this verse, I saw something fascinating. Two words are repeated twice in Hebrew Bible just like in the proverbs (diligently, diligently). The words repeated here both mean to break down. The first word is to break down/beat down. The second word is to break down in pieces, crush, etc. So we are to utterly pull <span style="font-size: large;"><u>down and down, and crush and crush</u></span> their standing images. Then...<br />
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And so you shall serve the LORD your God, and he will bless your bread and water, and will take sickness away from the midst of you. (Exodus 23:26)</blockquote>
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Glory to God. He is the One who healed us all! I am waiting for the day when the LORD will act and I will hold a proof in my hand (One time I decided not to wait for that, but then I noticed it was still my desire to have an "NED" (no evidence of disease) in my hand, so I am waiting for it again) . Until then, I keep hiding in the shadow of His wings, speaking to the mountain to be removed and be thrown into the sea!<br />
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In Christ,ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-47672800081373939252012-01-29T21:03:00.000-08:002012-05-11T22:56:27.919-07:00Psalm 116 in my own wordsI love that the LORD has heard my voice and my earnest prayers attentively.<br />
Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.<br />
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The cords of death were around me, the terrors of grave overtook me.<br />
I saw only trouble and sorrow.<br />
But I called on the name of the LORD, "Please, LORD, save me!"<br />
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The LORD is merciful and righteous, yes, our God is compassionate.<br />
The LORD preserves the thoughtless; when I was brought low (oppressed) he saved me.<br />
My soul, return to your rest!<br />
For the LORD has been generous toward you.<br />
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Yes, you have rescued me from death, my eyes from tears and my feet from falling.<br />
I will go on walking in the presence of the LORD in the lands of the living.<br />
I will keep on trusting even when I say,<br />
"I am utterly miserable," even when, in my panic, I declare, "Everything human is deceptive."<br />
How can I repay the LORD for all his generous dealings with me?<br />
I will raise the cup of salvation and call on the name of the LORD.<br />
I will pay my vows to the LORD in the presence of all his people.<br />
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I am forever thankful that the LORD is giving me abundant life everyday. Stage IV cancer is diminishing.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-69519625125200769582012-01-08T19:33:00.000-08:002012-01-08T21:41:15.444-08:00Videos that give you faith!<a href="http://www.cross.tv/68629" target="_blank">http://www.cross.tv/68629</a><br />
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<a href="http://www.cross.tv/8549" target="_blank">http://www.cross.tv/8549</a><br />
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by Christine Dargruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6483794666127294337.post-75499884758874007252012-01-08T18:40:00.000-08:002012-01-08T18:43:19.474-08:00my friend is healedOne of my friends from church, who was diagnosed with stomach cancer, is cancer-free! I haven't seen him in awhile but I heard the news through my son. He had some bad days during chemo therapies. But he is free now! That is great news.<br />
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God heals today. <br />
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Praise God. Thank you, Jesus.<br />
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The above blog was written some time ago. Today I heard his testimony at church. After chemo therapy he was having a heart problem and the doctors said a part of the heart was not functioning.<br />
Today, he testified and said that the doctors could not figure it out, but his heart was starting to heal itself.<br />
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Glory to God. It is amazing. He looked very good today, too.ruhamahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02339237012540986558noreply@blogger.com0