Saturday, July 21, 2012

Brain MRI 7/2012

I had another MRI on my brain.

I was confident in God and also in physical condition. I have aches and pains but I felt my immune system was doing good, but a few days before the MRI I was in a spiritual battle. Negative thoughts came in and tried to bring the very negative imagination - like I was going to start deteriorating..  Then I realized God hasn't changed his mind. Jesus died for me once, and that was enough!! I concentrated my mind on God, trying to just focus on His goodness. He is the only one who can heal me. I listened to encouraging CD's like Graham Cooke's. They helped me tremendously. He assures us that God is on our side. When we are with him, we are battling from the winning side. I shouted in my mind, "Jesus!" many times...

The result was good!! My brain is good.

Praise and glory to God!! Thank you, Jesus.

Monday, July 16, 2012

My mission

18 and the LORD sent you on a mission, and said, 'Go and utterly destroy the sinners, the Amalekites, and fight against them until they are exterminated.' 19 "Why then did you not obey the voice of the LORD, but rushed upon the spoil and did what was evil in the sight of the LORD ?"  - I Samuel 15:17-19

I have been in this waiting mode for awhile after chemo is done, and sometimes my mind tries to imagine something negative. I have been learning to fight and to stay under God's favor but one day I almost accepted that I will start deteriorating, then the LORD spoke to me through these verses as if to say, "I told you I will heal you completely but why are you now turning away from it?" That is right!! I received so many promises and why then do I doubt him now? I repented. God is always ready to reach out to me.