Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Praying for healing - spoken words

My prayer has changed last couple of weeks. The pastor at church said to take a risk and confess whatever you believe. I wanted to try to take a risk!  I ran to the pastor after the service and confessed to him that I was healed. The whole week I was filled with joy and the song flowed out of me.

Dr. Cho's book said something about spoken words and healing also. He said that God's spirit was hovering over the surface when God created the heavens and the earth, but nothing was happening until God spoke. The spoken words of God created things!

So I confessed. And I confess again. Some people think I am in denial. So I will be careful not to deny the fact that the tumor is still there. But at the same time I confess that I am healed because of Jesus' cross.

By his stripes I am healed.

I heard that in Hebrew and in Greek they use one word for healing and salvation. If we believe that we are saved by faith, then I don't know why we cannot say we are healed by faith. The Bible says, "Let the weak say I am strong." It doesn't say that the weak person has to wait until he becomes strong. The weak should say in faith that he is strong. I am going through the path of stage IV cancer treatment but let me say I am healed because of Jesus.

Let me keep believing.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Quote from Malachi

“But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings. 
And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture. 
On the day when I act, you will tread upon the wicked as if they were dust under your feet,” 
says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies.    Malachi 4:2-3 (NLT)
 The word "healing" means health, healing, cure, profit, and sound (of mind) according to Blue Letter Bible definition.

Wow. This is what the LORD says! 

"But for you who fear my name.."

I fear (in awe) your name! You are my God who created the heaven and the earth. Thank you, Lord. May ALL who fear His name be delivered into liberty!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Great example

Here is one of the first thing I googled after my doctor told me the prognosis. He basically said there was no cure for me and the treatment was to keep my body alive longer on this earth. I hardly knew the Osteens but suddenly I remembered she was healed of metastatic liver cancer miraculously. I looked for her story because I wanted to know what she did, and I wanted to follow her example.

Dodie Osteen

She showed me how to choose life.

The Word of God is powerful. Knowing His Words and living as I hear from God is how I want to live. Modern medicine and the knowledge the doctors and nurses have are wonderful and I respect them but all the glory belong to God. Doctors treat but Jesus heals. Now is my chance to live closer with God, trusting, believing that His will is to heal. Because it is His will to heal us all. We all die but we don't have to die with sicknesses and diseases. No. We leave this world when our Father calls us home.

One of the scriptures that has come to me often is from Mark.

"And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."  Mark 16:17-18

My Dream
Right before my first chemotherapy I didn't really want to go for it, then I had a dream. In my dream I was walking through a dark, poor neighborhood. I could see inside of some of the homes (it was more like rooms). As I looked into one of them, people wrapped in gray cloths were reclining in mattresses. Then I said to myself, "It is a death room!" and I ran. I was afraid to get the chemotherapy because I knew it would kill not just the cancer cells, but also my healthy ones... The room I was about to enter for the first chemotherapy reminded me of the room I saw in my dream. But God reminded me of the scripture many times before I went in. I threw my arms into the air and prayed to God and then I said the scripture, believing that the poison (chemo) would not harm me, then I placed my right hand on myself and said the last part of the scripture. I once had my non-charismatic friend lay her hand on me as I said this scripture right before my MRI, too. We were praying in a little locker room where I changed my clothes and other people could have heard us but we just prayed with tears in our eyes. I am so thankful I am a family member of God.

I am doing better and better after chemotherapy started. The "poison" is working to attack the cancer but not harming my body. I believe the scripture is active. Praise our Father!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Happy encounters

Many divine encounters have been happening. They are stirring up my spirit to cause me to have desire to know God more. God is calling me to spend more time reading His word and listen to Him and just hang around with him more, I believe, because I was feeling down last week. I was not happy because when I had a chance to give a testimony unexpectedly, I felt like I was not giving glory to God. Does my heart really depend on God or chemotherapy and other vitamins? Cancer shrunk but why not total healing? Is it because I don't know God's word enough yet? I want to know God's way more!!

Those happy encounters were divine ones to stir up my spirit.
Yesterday I saw one of my friends' husband at a parking lot and he prayed for me.
 Last night at my friend's farewell dinner, one friend was simply sharing how she has been reading one chapter a day since the spring time and I commended her for that. It stirred up my spirit again to read the Bible and keep on reading. Today someone who wrote me an encouraging letter after he heard about me came by to drop off some CD's of healing teaching. We had never met before. He was a delight and the CD's are amazing. Godly people are around!!

Dodie Osteen said to read the Bible diligently in her testimony. She was healed of her cancer 28 years ago after she was told she had two weeks to live.

No time to waste!
I will stand firmly on the word of God!
Father, I will meet you in my closet now.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

In His Presence

Last Sunday I met someone who has been healed from his stage 3 esophagus cancer. He prayed for me. He said that he did not know how to pray in a fancy way but he just prays for people. How wonderful! He said he never doubted that Jesus would heal him. Hmmm.... have I doubted? I have to say that I wondered if He would do that for me even though I believe firmly that Jesus can heal people miraculously. But I will keep believing and will not doubt.

He also said that he stays in the presence of the LORD. I need to be reminded of that. It is amazing that even when I am diagnosed with a devastating disease, I need to be reminded of that! But I took it as reality. I need to realize that spending time and tarrying with Jesus is not  just a relaxing time. It is the most important time. So I am tarrying more.

A lady at church told me several weeks ago that I should not wait until I am healed before I start praying for other people. I have been looking for an opportunity to come. Then last Thursday on my way home from another chemotherapy I saw a lady in a wheelchair with a cap on. She had lost her hair. Her husband was pushing her wheelchair. I had no time to hesitate because my heart went out to this young lady and I had compassion for her. I wanted her to know Jesus wanted to heal her. I am usually a shy person, but I introduced myself to her at the parking lot and gave her a copy of the list of healing scriptures I got form the Bethel church in Redding. I prayed one sentence in Jesus' name and left. (They were kind of in a hurry to get to the pharmacy before it closed.)

Jesus, we need you!

Praise God. Thank you God. I continue to do well through chemotherapy. Jesus is the center of the gospel. When I seek the kingdom of God first, other things will be also given to me and all who believe.

"And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."  Mark 16:17-18

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Jesus healed all who came to him

Pastor Bill Johnson in Redding, Ca., said that Jesus did not say, "I cannot pray for healing because I think God is teaching you a lesson through this sickness." It is an incredible truth. I have been reminding myself that Jesus healed "all." God is not teaching me something in this sickness. God did not send this to me. That is why I can fight and keep going to God in prayer. I also keep asking for prayer. It is perfectly OK with God.

Jesus also healed Peter's mother-in-law and she got up and started serving. I told God that I would like to serve and love my family. I have been given the energy to work in the kitchen more and more. I didn't cook for awhile but now I am cooking again for my family.

If I believe that I am saved because of what the Lord has done for me, then, why not believing in healing because of what the Lord has done?

The truth is setting me free.