Friday, October 19, 2012

cyberknife test

Today I went to my CyberKnife doctor's office. They tested and see if the robot will be able to catch the movement of my lung and the nodule. The doctor said we can go ahead and plan the treatment!

Only Jesus could have arranged this. From the very beginning when I needed help, I was already in a place where things just happened. Co-workers said over and over that I was at the right place at the right time. In the office was a doctor who is the wife of CyberKnife doctor. Otherwise I wouldn't have know about it, I don't think.

Galatians 5:1
So Christ has really set you free now make sure that you stay free and don't get tied up in the slavery to the Law.

I heard this on the radio today. The Christian radio station was reading this verse. My pride thought, "O I know this verse," but the Lord meant it at the moment because right after I thought this thought the scripture was read and it pierced my heart (like you have a crush on a movie star at the first sight). Now after I studied healing scriptures and learned from many people, this "Law" has more aspect than the Law I used to think...like rules and regulations. Because the sickness is the curse of the law!! But Jesus carried all of it on the cross!! So He has done that, now I have to make sure that I stay free from the slavery to the law.  In this short verse God spoke to me a lot in the short time while I was at work. (I sometimes stay at work and I am all by myself because I am a data entry person, then I turn on the Christian radio station. )

Surely God's goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. (Psalm 23)

I thank God who is so gracious and powerful!!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I am hearing...

According to your faith

...is the first one I noticed that was present in my mind lately. It might be God, I thought. Then I thought since I think God might be speaking to me, I should pray. So I prayed to God and told him what my heart's desire is.

Then...
Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

 I repeated this part over and over and over because I felt happy as I was saying it. Then it felt like I was prophesying over my life. : )  Everyone should try this.


The third one, which started to come in my mind today was "I do not share my glory with anything/anyone else." It was a funny timing because I just saw the radiation oncologist who told me the CyberKnife will most likely lead me to a total remission from cancer (used to be stage IV) and also to a freedom from medications!  And we are planning to have it done soon. I rejoice in God's ways. I take it as God's way. In the past I felt I was stuck with medication the rest of my life and I didn't know how I was going to be free from it. I asked my doctor many times to let me stop the meds to give my built-in immune system a chance to be strong again but he said no. But now CyberKnife will end all of it just like that! Who else could have led me to this path? I give glory to God!! Thank you, Jesus! There is truly power in Jesus' name.

He is the one who walked with me all this time and encouraged me.

with thanks,