One day at a time

In the very beginning of my journey of healing, I decided to choose life. (I learned it from Dodie Osteen's book.) Since then I have been choosing life one day at a time in the best way I know how. I wish I kept a journey every single day but I didn't because I was trying to just live literally everyday. Most of my energy went to just to eat well and sleep so that I could have enough energy to go to work and do the best I could. I never felt very sick, and I seemed to be living a regular life, but now I look back and I realize I had much less energy.

Now I am trying to write down all the scriptures I received from the LORD in one notebook.  Reading the scriptures with a Hebrew dictionary has given me great insight. I would like to share in my blog, but I haven't been organized enough to do so. I am happy to read those scriptures, to repeat and to think about it over and over. My heart becomes "full."

ひつじさん

ブログでひつじさんに出会いました。
今もひつじさんの癒しを信じていのります。
私の教会の友達でキモセラピーを始めた友達のためにも。
これからキモセラピーを始める友達のだんな様のためにも。
私と同じ肺がんといわれて、知り合いになった友達のためにも。
どんな状態であろうと息をしていれば決して遅くはないと、韓国のチョー先生は言っています。
言ったからといってそうならないこともあるけれど、私はそれでも信じることを選びます。

希望のないときにこそ信じるのが信仰。神様は奇跡をおこなう専門家なのです。
父なる神様、あなたの御言葉を信じています。

I pray for this man I saw on a blog and got to know a little. I pray for his healing, still believing.
I pray for a friend at church who started chemo therapy.
I pray for my friend's husband who is about to start chemo therapy.
I pray for a woman who called me because she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.
It is not too late as long as you are still breathing, says Dr. Cho from South Korea.
It does not always happen just because you declare something, but I choose to believe.

Faith is to believe when there seems to be no hope. God's specialty is to perform miracles.
My Father, I believe in your words.

August 5th, 2011

Well, the result was the same as last time. The tumor size is the same (abut 1 inch dia.), and it is still sucking up the sugar water (chemical they injected) but not much. I reject to dwell in this mode. I say no thank you to cooperate with cancer.

I will wait for the LORD.
All his promises are "yes." So I say "Amen!" through Jesus.

PETスキャンの結果は、前回と同じでした。がんのサイズは同じで、血液に注入された光る砂糖水（専門用語がわからない）を吸い込む量も同じ。大量ではありませんでしたが。でもこのままのモードでいるつもりはありません。がんと共存はしません。

私は主を待ち望みます。
かみさまの約束はすべてなされますから、私はただアーメンといってイエス様の御名によって同意するのみ。

August 4th, 2011

I saw my radiology tech for PET scan for the fourth time today. I remember the very first PET scan for my body. The tech looked very solemn from the distance and did not even look at me after the first scan. I felt like it was not so good. Today I went in as a very healthy person even though I don't have the proof yet. But everyday since I was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer, I have been doing good. It has been an amazing journey. Our God is an awesome God. He is good. All Jesus did was the Father's will. Jesus always healed people.