I am in Chicago to attend a wedding.
When we were informed of this wedding last summer, I was at the beginning of my journey to fight against cancer. I was wondering what condition I would be in. I was not sure if I would be able to go. Since then I learned that it was God's will for me to be healed, I was to keep believing the word of God, I was to know the word of God so that faith would come, and I believed. There is no proof that the cancer is gone yet but I keep believing.
And I am in Chicago. It is amazing. I took 2 days off from work!
I was a little nervous to travel. I am physically fine, so there is no reason to be afraid, but I was a little nervous. Then I saw 2 feathers today. They suddenly came to my sight in the air. I had fun experiences with feathers in the past, so they remind me of God's encouragement. I smiled when I saw them. God is with me. God is so gracious!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Power of God to face Monday
I received God's power to face Monday after I attended the conference with Graham Cooke and Christa Black! My shoulder is getting healed. I can tell that it is getting better all of a sudden (yet gradually).
My shoulder injury seems to be related to how I feel about the office. It was getting negative. But God's ways are always right. Overcoming evil with good is the right path. Now I am taking one more step forward towards more freedom. I used to start feeling nervous on Sunday afternoon thinking about the pressure at work, even though I like the job, but this Sunday was different. I choose not to follow the path of how I feel. Black Monday cannot get me now.
Hallelujah.
My shoulder injury seems to be related to how I feel about the office. It was getting negative. But God's ways are always right. Overcoming evil with good is the right path. Now I am taking one more step forward towards more freedom. I used to start feeling nervous on Sunday afternoon thinking about the pressure at work, even though I like the job, but this Sunday was different. I choose not to follow the path of how I feel. Black Monday cannot get me now.
Hallelujah.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Faith revived with David Wilkrson's last message
The MRI result showed that I had adhesive capsulitis, bursitis, and tendinopathy.
I have been praying for my right shoulder but it is painful. I have a lot of stress at work, too. I am being negative. Lord, what should I do about my shoulder? I wake up in the middle of the night, weeping due to the stress from work. The shoulder pain does not help.
I was at the oncologist's office again, receiving the maintenance medication last Thursday. I was feeling very worn out. I was asking myself where the joy of the LORD was. I didn't have it. I was shocked. I reached to the newsletter in my purse. I was desperately trying to find the LORD's way again, then suddenly it came.
Mr. David Wilkerson
Why do I forget that God' specialty is to give us hope when there seems to be no hope.
仕事がヘビーで超スピードでタイプをうちまくっていたら肩が１月あたりから痛くなり、そのうち直るだろうと思っていたら腕があがらなくなってしまいました。癌が見つかった肺と近いので主治医にそうだんしたら、MRIをオーダーしてくれました。で、結局四十肩とか五十肩とかいうものなのだとおもいます。（ちゃんと調べてない） 祈っていたし、人にも祈ってもらってるけれど同じ感じでした。MRIのあたりからなんか直ってきたみたいだけど、今度はますます腕があがらなくなってます。主よ、どうしましょう。。。と祈りながら、悲しんでいきました。仕事のストレスもすごくて（なんか意地悪されてるみたいに思えた）先週は夜中に急に目がさめて大なきをしてました。仕事のことを考えて。いままでの主からの喜びはどこへ行ったのかと、自分でも驚きです。どこにもない！！でも一生懸命探したら、答えがやってきました。先週のアポイントメントのときにDavid Wilkersonさんの最後のDevotional をよんでたら、どーんと来ました。主以外に希望はない！！ しってるはずなのに、突然新しい出来事のように私に教えてくれた言葉。これこそ生きた神様のメッセージだと思いました。そして受け取りました。 イエス様、ありがとうございます。
I have been praying for my right shoulder but it is painful. I have a lot of stress at work, too. I am being negative. Lord, what should I do about my shoulder? I wake up in the middle of the night, weeping due to the stress from work. The shoulder pain does not help.
I was at the oncologist's office again, receiving the maintenance medication last Thursday. I was feeling very worn out. I was asking myself where the joy of the LORD was. I didn't have it. I was shocked. I reached to the newsletter in my purse. I was desperately trying to find the LORD's way again, then suddenly it came.
Mr. David Wilkerson
Why do I forget that God' specialty is to give us hope when there seems to be no hope.
仕事がヘビーで超スピードでタイプをうちまくっていたら肩が１月あたりから痛くなり、そのうち直るだろうと思っていたら腕があがらなくなってしまいました。癌が見つかった肺と近いので主治医にそうだんしたら、MRIをオーダーしてくれました。で、結局四十肩とか五十肩とかいうものなのだとおもいます。（ちゃんと調べてない） 祈っていたし、人にも祈ってもらってるけれど同じ感じでした。MRIのあたりからなんか直ってきたみたいだけど、今度はますます腕があがらなくなってます。主よ、どうしましょう。。。と祈りながら、悲しんでいきました。仕事のストレスもすごくて（なんか意地悪されてるみたいに思えた）先週は夜中に急に目がさめて大なきをしてました。仕事のことを考えて。いままでの主からの喜びはどこへ行ったのかと、自分でも驚きです。どこにもない！！でも一生懸命探したら、答えがやってきました。先週のアポイントメントのときにDavid Wilkersonさんの最後のDevotional をよんでたら、どーんと来ました。主以外に希望はない！！ しってるはずなのに、突然新しい出来事のように私に教えてくれた言葉。これこそ生きた神様のメッセージだと思いました。そして受け取りました。 イエス様、ありがとうございます。
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Dreams I had during chemo
First dream
I started to run away from a place that looked like a death house. I wrote about it somewhere in this blog. It was right before the first chemo therapy.
Second dream
My husband was having me listen to some messages from The Bethel church in Redding, California. One of them was about a girl who can get a new body part for the person she is praying for. Then one night I had a dream. I was standing and looking up at the light blue sky with some clouds. I didn't know where it was. Then suddenly 2 right lungs came down and stopped in the middle of the air. (The cancer had been identified in my right lung.) I could feel someone was standing next to me. After I stared at those two lungs for a short while, I said, "What am I doing? I need to grab the good lung!" (One was good, and the other was a bad lung.) I reached for the good lung, and I woke up.
Third dream
I was standing at a festival or something. Booths are there, and suddenly I was standing in front of a small table where a man was performing some kind of card magic. He moved his hands fast and something was done, but I didn't know what he did. Then the man said to me, "Didn't you get it? It means your liver is clear."
Some weeks later I received good news from the radiologist. The liver, lymph, and the bones were clear, and the size of the tumor decreased.
Benny Hinn
I decided to watch Benny Hinn one evening because I wanted to see some people healed and be encouraged. Have you heard of anyone placing hands on the screen with those TV evangelists and people are saved? I have. I thought I would try. (I know some people would laugh at me but I just thought I would try.) I knelt in front of the TV screen, placed my hands on the screen over Benny Hinns. He says, "Hmmm...Someone is healed from Lung cancer..." Then he went on to say the person's name, and it was not mine. But you know what! This year I learned that I can received the crumbs that come off of the table, too. Immediately I said to myself , "I would take it!" Through Benny Hinn or through Presbyterian's and Lutheran's faithful prayers, God can heal.
Yet another dream
I am still new to the church I attend. They are praying that more healing will happen at the church. They want to love God and love people. One of the pastors had said that he has not seen anyone healed after he prayed for them. He wants to see healing right in front of his eyes. I do, too. I appreciated his honesty. One Sunday morning I was wondering if I am going to that church or not (because my family goes somewhere else), then suddenly the pastor's serious face appeared right in front of me while I was asleep. I felt like maybe I was supposed to ask him to pray for me. I felt like it was God's way - using someone who said none had been healed after he prayed. God is full of grace! When I stood in front of him, he immediately said, "I had been looking for you." I knew I did the right thing that morning.
I started to run away from a place that looked like a death house. I wrote about it somewhere in this blog. It was right before the first chemo therapy.
Second dream
My husband was having me listen to some messages from The Bethel church in Redding, California. One of them was about a girl who can get a new body part for the person she is praying for. Then one night I had a dream. I was standing and looking up at the light blue sky with some clouds. I didn't know where it was. Then suddenly 2 right lungs came down and stopped in the middle of the air. (The cancer had been identified in my right lung.) I could feel someone was standing next to me. After I stared at those two lungs for a short while, I said, "What am I doing? I need to grab the good lung!" (One was good, and the other was a bad lung.) I reached for the good lung, and I woke up.
Third dream
I was standing at a festival or something. Booths are there, and suddenly I was standing in front of a small table where a man was performing some kind of card magic. He moved his hands fast and something was done, but I didn't know what he did. Then the man said to me, "Didn't you get it? It means your liver is clear."
Some weeks later I received good news from the radiologist. The liver, lymph, and the bones were clear, and the size of the tumor decreased.
Benny Hinn
I decided to watch Benny Hinn one evening because I wanted to see some people healed and be encouraged. Have you heard of anyone placing hands on the screen with those TV evangelists and people are saved? I have. I thought I would try. (I know some people would laugh at me but I just thought I would try.) I knelt in front of the TV screen, placed my hands on the screen over Benny Hinns. He says, "Hmmm...Someone is healed from Lung cancer..." Then he went on to say the person's name, and it was not mine. But you know what! This year I learned that I can received the crumbs that come off of the table, too. Immediately I said to myself , "I would take it!" Through Benny Hinn or through Presbyterian's and Lutheran's faithful prayers, God can heal.
Yet another dream
I am still new to the church I attend. They are praying that more healing will happen at the church. They want to love God and love people. One of the pastors had said that he has not seen anyone healed after he prayed for them. He wants to see healing right in front of his eyes. I do, too. I appreciated his honesty. One Sunday morning I was wondering if I am going to that church or not (because my family goes somewhere else), then suddenly the pastor's serious face appeared right in front of me while I was asleep. I felt like maybe I was supposed to ask him to pray for me. I felt like it was God's way - using someone who said none had been healed after he prayed. God is full of grace! When I stood in front of him, he immediately said, "I had been looking for you." I knew I did the right thing that morning.
Friday, May 27, 2011
I need the presence of God
Mahesh Chavda
When the doctor remineds me that the maintenance medicine will stop working eventually, that I will die sooner or later, I ran fast to my Father tonight. I resist the doctor's words and tried to wipe them off of my mind. I am not ignoring the fact that I am on the maintenance medicine, but I would rather acknowledge the promise of God. The only way I can be delivered from those unwanted words from the doctor and from the stress of work is to run to the Father's presence. I went to Mahesh Chavda's youtube, which I found the other day, and remained in the presence of God in the film for awhile.
The glory of God is present if we ask for it. My Father's promise is still good. His words will not go back to Him in vain. They always accomplish their purpose. Our strength is in the presence of the glory of God.
主治医が 薬が効かなくなるのも時間の問題だ～と軽く言った時 彼から背を向けて父なる神様の元に走りよりました。彼の言葉を頭に残しておきたくない！開放されるには神様の臨在の中にいくしかないと知っているから、走りました。このYOUTUBEは以前みつけてお気に入りにしてあります。この場の力を借りて暫くその中にじっとして神様のそばにいました。
そして力をいただいたのです。神様の言葉に偽りはないのです。
When the doctor remineds me that the maintenance medicine will stop working eventually, that I will die sooner or later, I ran fast to my Father tonight. I resist the doctor's words and tried to wipe them off of my mind. I am not ignoring the fact that I am on the maintenance medicine, but I would rather acknowledge the promise of God. The only way I can be delivered from those unwanted words from the doctor and from the stress of work is to run to the Father's presence. I went to Mahesh Chavda's youtube, which I found the other day, and remained in the presence of God in the film for awhile.
The glory of God is present if we ask for it. My Father's promise is still good. His words will not go back to Him in vain. They always accomplish their purpose. Our strength is in the presence of the glory of God.
主治医が 薬が効かなくなるのも時間の問題だ～と軽く言った時 彼から背を向けて父なる神様の元に走りよりました。彼の言葉を頭に残しておきたくない！開放されるには神様の臨在の中にいくしかないと知っているから、走りました。このYOUTUBEは以前みつけてお気に入りにしてあります。この場の力を借りて暫くその中にじっとして神様のそばにいました。
そして力をいただいたのです。神様の言葉に偽りはないのです。
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Just like Kaleb - Joshua 14:11
In Joshua, Kaleb says this:
I want to be a strong grandma when I have grandchildren someday!
I am still as strong today as the day Moses sent me out; I’m just as vigorous to go out to battle now as I was then.He was 85 years old when he said this. I want to be like him.
I want to be a strong grandma when I have grandchildren someday!
Monday, May 9, 2011
Consecration means "filling of the hand" pt. 2 - Leviticus 9:1
This section is called Sh'mini (Eighth) and it starts with chapter 9.
Leviticus 9:1 (NIV)
On the eighth day Moses summoned Aaron and his sons and the elders of Israel. Here is the rest of chapter 9.
After the seven-day inaugural service(after their hands were filled), on the eighth day, the priests entered the tabernacle to minister. They performed the first sacrificial service of the nation. Moses AND Aaron went into the tabernacle (it used to be Moses alone!), and after they came out, Aaron blessed the people. Then the fire from heaven came down and consumed the alter offering!
All the people saw the glory of God.
Chapter 10
Then something happens. Aaron's sons did their own things and God's fire consumed them. The Bible says they offered "different fire"(or wrong kind of fire).
The people saw God's fire consuming the sacrifice and saw the glory of God first. Then they saw God's fire consuming the priests who offered wrong kind of fire.
Consecration is "filling of the hand." We save special time with God to be filled with His presence and thoughts, and that causes us to do God's will, being filled with the Holy Spirit. Not our own ideas.
Jesus, forgive me if I put my own thinking into action and assume that it is God's will. Please let me have what you give to me and I may be sent out by you. I am grateful for God's grace who will never give up on us.
Leviticus 9:1 (NIV)
On the eighth day Moses summoned Aaron and his sons and the elders of Israel. Here is the rest of chapter 9.
After the seven-day inaugural service(after their hands were filled), on the eighth day, the priests entered the tabernacle to minister. They performed the first sacrificial service of the nation. Moses AND Aaron went into the tabernacle (it used to be Moses alone!), and after they came out, Aaron blessed the people. Then the fire from heaven came down and consumed the alter offering!
All the people saw the glory of God.
Chapter 10
Then something happens. Aaron's sons did their own things and God's fire consumed them. The Bible says they offered "different fire"(or wrong kind of fire).
The people saw God's fire consuming the sacrifice and saw the glory of God first. Then they saw God's fire consuming the priests who offered wrong kind of fire.
Consecration is "filling of the hand." We save special time with God to be filled with His presence and thoughts, and that causes us to do God's will, being filled with the Holy Spirit. Not our own ideas.
Jesus, forgive me if I put my own thinking into action and assume that it is God's will. Please let me have what you give to me and I may be sent out by you. I am grateful for God's grace who will never give up on us.
Consecration is "filling of the hand" - pt. 1
Leviticus 8:22, 28, 29, 31, 33
22And he brought the other ram, the ram of consecration: and Aaron and his sons laid their hands upon the head of the ram. (KJV)
The underlined word is ordination in NIV and NAS.
It is consecration and ordination in Amplified Bible.
According to the Blue Letter Bible, the word for consecration/ordination ("millu" in Hebrew) is this.
According to the Strong's Dictionary, the Hebrew word "millu" also means "filling." Interesting.
F.B. Meyer says:
Thank you, LORD.
22And he brought the other ram, the ram of consecration: and Aaron and his sons laid their hands upon the head of the ram. (KJV)
The underlined word is ordination in NIV and NAS.
It is consecration and ordination in Amplified Bible.
According to the Blue Letter Bible, the word for consecration/ordination ("millu" in Hebrew) is this.
According to the Strong's Dictionary, the Hebrew word "millu" also means "filling." Interesting.
F.B. Meyer says:
Consecration, according to the Hebrew word, means "filling the hand." Too many of us suppose that the consecrated soul renounces all - nay, it receives all. The nets are full of fish; the baskets are full of the broken pieces; the soul is full of grace and glory.
Thank you, LORD.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
leviticus 6
I imagine that I was one of the Israelite.
I imagine the fire in the sky at night and white cloud in the blue sky during the day.
In Leviticus 6, the LORD told Moses to keep the fire going on the alter.
Now they are staying in one spot and they still see the fire at night and white stuff in the sky during the day.
I imagine fire at night and white smoke in the sky during the day.
I love it!
I imagine the fire in the sky at night and white cloud in the blue sky during the day.
Exodus 13:21-22 (English Standard Version)
21And(A) the LORD went before them by day in a pillar of cloud to lead them along the way, and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, that they might travel by day and by night. 22The pillar of cloud by day and the pillar of fire by night did not depart from before the people.
In Leviticus 6, the LORD told Moses to keep the fire going on the alter.
Now they are staying in one spot and they still see the fire at night and white stuff in the sky during the day.
Leviticus 6:9 (ESV)
9 “Command Aaron and his sons, saying, This is the law of the burnt offering. The burnt offering shall be on the hearth on the altar all night until the morning, and the fire of the altar shall be kept burning on it.
I imagine fire at night and white smoke in the sky during the day.
I love it!
Easter and Passover
Every year I wonder and still don't know the answer to this one question.
Who decides when the Easter Sunday is?
A lot of people say, "I thought the passover always came right before the Easter." I thought so , too. But it still doesn't answer my question. I understand why Passover date changes every year. Their calender is different from our 'modern' or 'regular' calender. I can't fully explain but it has something to do with the moon. Then why doesn't the date of Easter change with it? Easter date changes every year (it seems like), but doesn't go along with the Passover day. I feel like it should either change according to Passover, or if it is ignoring the Jewish culture, I feel like it should stay on the same date every year. It is strange. Am I crazy to think like this?
A few years ago Easter happened before Passover! Can that happen?? Then I wondered when the day of Pentecost would be... but no one was talking about it around me.... Without a bias, I sincerely think that Passover date would be always right. Then the day of Pentecost comes 7 weeks after Passover since it is a Jewish event. I have a feeling that many Christians don't really connect the Jewish ceremony and this Pentecost event have some connections. I certainly didn't hear about it for many, many years until I started to be interested in the Jewish culture. We are not bound by law, but just as we would like to know everything about someone we love, I would like to know these things accurately, realizing that we are now living in grace at the same time.
As I started thinking about those things and started googling, I found this web site. A lot of Christian people may think I am crazy, but I would like to pay attention to what this person has to say.
12/11/09
A lot of people say, "I thought the passover always came right before the Easter." I thought so , too. But it still doesn't answer my question. I understand why Passover date changes every year. Their calender is different from our 'modern' or 'regular' calender. I can't fully explain but it has something to do with the moon. Then why doesn't the date of Easter change with it? Easter date changes every year (it seems like), but doesn't go along with the Passover day. I feel like it should either change according to Passover, or if it is ignoring the Jewish culture, I feel like it should stay on the same date every year. It is strange. Am I crazy to think like this?
A few years ago Easter happened before Passover! Can that happen?? Then I wondered when the day of Pentecost would be... but no one was talking about it around me.... Without a bias, I sincerely think that Passover date would be always right. Then the day of Pentecost comes 7 weeks after Passover since it is a Jewish event. I have a feeling that many Christians don't really connect the Jewish ceremony and this Pentecost event have some connections. I certainly didn't hear about it for many, many years until I started to be interested in the Jewish culture. We are not bound by law, but just as we would like to know everything about someone we love, I would like to know these things accurately, realizing that we are now living in grace at the same time.
As I started thinking about those things and started googling, I found this web site. A lot of Christian people may think I am crazy, but I would like to pay attention to what this person has to say.
12/11/09
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