Thanksgiving - Psalm 30

Psalm 30

¹ I will exalt you, Lord, for you rescued me.
      You refused to let my enemies triumph over me.
 ² O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
      and you restored my health.
 ³ You brought me up from the grave, O Lord.
      You kept me from falling into the pit of death.

That is exactly what God is doing in my life!
I am full of gratitude.
Thank you, Father.

Today I got together with some of my relatives, and I connected with some of my friends via texting. My heart was full of joy.

 ¹¹ You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing.
      You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy,
 ¹² that I might sing praises to you and not be silent.
      O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!

I don't want to forget what you have done.
I keep praising you, Lord.

Spoken words - Deuteromony 4:9

Deuteronomy 4:9 (my own words, acquired from different translations)

Only take heed, hedge about, attend to , and protect your life/breath/soul diligently so that you don't forget what God has said (= and done!) which your eyes have seen, and so that the word of God, which was accomplished by His deeds, will not leave your heart all the way till the end.

Instruct your children and grandchildren.

In Dodie Osteen's book, I read that the word for "God has said (=and done)" is translated as "miracle" in her devotional. In other translations it is "word" or "things." It caught my eyes.

I found that the original word is Strong's Hebrew 1697    דָּבָר (dabar).

It can be word, spoken, matter, or thing. 

Dabar is also the Hebrew title of Deuteronomy. 

Personally this word is saying that the word of God equals things/matter because God does what he says. That the spoken words are always done is hidden in this small word. When God's spoken words or promises come true in front of our eyes, it is a miracle.

Joshua 21:45 (my own words acquired from different translations)

Not one good thing/promise/word (Strong's 1697) which the LORD had spoken unto the house of Israel failed; all came to pass/go/bring forth/cause.

It is written that God's word will not return to him void. In this case the word even causes things. I sense the importance of the spoken words.

Jesus told the disciples that "These signs will accompany those who believe; They will cast out demons in my name, and they will speak new language; they will be able to handle snakes with safety, and if they drink anything poisonous, it won't hurt them. They will be able to place their hands on the sick and heal them."

Then later the Bible says that ".. the disciples went everywhere and preached, and the LORD worked with them, confirming what they said by many miraculous signs."

I don't know how to compare Greek words to Hebrew, but somehow I think these scriptures go together.

I thank God for His life-giving words. Lord, I pray that your word keeps being alive in my life and those who need life in their bodies. 

In Jesus,

"You saved my soul"

Be blessed by Bryan and Katie Torwalt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zouu_88-ZV8



"....I'm healed now, cause you made me whole."

This makes me smile.

change in treatment plan

My oncologist has always said that the treatment plan will remain the same, but he is changing it.

Me "Could you remind me the reason why I was inoperable? People are asking me and I can't remember the reason."
Doctor "Well, the cancer was all over you."
Me "But it is in one place in the upper lung."
Doctor "Mmmm. If it stays the same for one year, we can have a surgeon to take it out."
Me "It is staying the same since April."
Then the doctor wrote down that he may send me to a surgeon in April. (or something similar)

Just like that?
Compared to what it was a year ago, it is amazing!

God is still watching how his words are accomplishing their purposes. His words never fails.
I am just standing in awe.

I am sorry but I have to confess here that I still don't have courage to be a part of a support group. Maybe I should be there and encourage people, but I don't feel strong enough to do it. I encourage myself through God's words but I may be discouraged easily. I want to keep looking up. When the medical world says there is not hope, God is my only hope. No man can save me. I just stand in awe and praise him. :)

Can we pray for other sick people while you are not yet healed?

Yes.

Dodie Osteen went out to pray for the sick while she was still suffering from cancer. Some people encouraged me to pray for other people, but I haven't done it consistently.


In Genesis Abraham and Sarah were told by God's messengers that Sarah was going to have a baby a year later. They were too old to have a baby in human's eyes. After this Abraham still lied to Abimelek and told him Sarah was his sister. Abimelek took Sarah in, but was warned in his dream not to touch her. Then Abraham prayed for Abimelek and his household, and the wombs were opened and they could have babies again!

Abraham prayed for others so that they could have children while he was still childless!

I am learning that sometimes testimonies causes others to receive healing.

Let's have more confidence in God and pray for others.

one year!

It has been over a year since I was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. It was September 1, 2010.  I remember walking down the street near my office then.  This year, on 9/1/2011, I walked on the same street, full of gratitude.

Today I went in for my maintenance medicine. The blood test results and my blood pressure were perfect! I am in "partial remission" according to the doctor. I am on my way to a total remission. Praise the Lord!

When all fails, remember our God specializes in creating a path when there seems to be no hope.

One day at a time

In the very beginning of my journey of healing, I decided to choose life. (I learned it from Dodie Osteen's book.) Since then I have been choosing life one day at a time in the best way I know how. I wish I kept a journey every single day but I didn't because I was trying to just live literally everyday. Most of my energy went to just to eat well and sleep so that I could have enough energy to go to work and do the best I could. I never felt very sick, and I seemed to be living a regular life, but now I look back and I realize I had much less energy.

Now I am trying to write down all the scriptures I received from the LORD in one notebook.  Reading the scriptures with a Hebrew dictionary has given me great insight. I would like to share in my blog, but I haven't been organized enough to do so. I am happy to read those scriptures, to repeat and to think about it over and over. My heart becomes "full."

ひつじさん

ブログでひつじさんに出会いました。
今もひつじさんの癒しを信じていのります。
私の教会の友達でキモセラピーを始めた友達のためにも。
これからキモセラピーを始める友達のだんな様のためにも。
私と同じ肺がんといわれて、知り合いになった友達のためにも。
どんな状態であろうと息をしていれば決して遅くはないと、韓国のチョー先生は言っています。
言ったからといってそうならないこともあるけれど、私はそれでも信じることを選びます。

希望のないときにこそ信じるのが信仰。神様は奇跡をおこなう専門家なのです。
父なる神様、あなたの御言葉を信じています。

I pray for this man I saw on a blog and got to know a little. I pray for his healing, still believing.
I pray for a friend at church who started chemo therapy.
I pray for my friend's husband who is about to start chemo therapy.
I pray for a woman who called me because she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.
It is not too late as long as you are still breathing, says Dr. Cho from South Korea.
It does not always happen just because you declare something, but I choose to believe.

Faith is to believe when there seems to be no hope. God's specialty is to perform miracles.
My Father, I believe in your words.

August 5th, 2011

Well, the result was the same as last time. The tumor size is the same (abut 1 inch dia.), and it is still sucking up the sugar water (chemical they injected) but not much. I reject to dwell in this mode. I say no thank you to cooperate with cancer.

I will wait for the LORD.
All his promises are "yes." So I say "Amen!" through Jesus.

PETスキャンの結果は、前回と同じでした。がんのサイズは同じで、血液に注入された光る砂糖水（専門用語がわからない）を吸い込む量も同じ。大量ではありませんでしたが。でもこのままのモードでいるつもりはありません。がんと共存はしません。

私は主を待ち望みます。
かみさまの約束はすべてなされますから、私はただアーメンといってイエス様の御名によって同意するのみ。

August 4th, 2011

I saw my radiology tech for PET scan for the fourth time today. I remember the very first PET scan for my body. The tech looked very solemn from the distance and did not even look at me after the first scan. I felt like it was not so good. Today I went in as a very healthy person even though I don't have the proof yet. But everyday since I was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer, I have been doing good. It has been an amazing journey. Our God is an awesome God. He is good. All Jesus did was the Father's will. Jesus always healed people.